Monday, January 18, 2016

Lunch Update

So lunch didn't happen.  I got a text from Charro this morning saying that she now had an appointment before me and couldn't pick up lunch.  Gee, that's a shame.  I was clearly very upset. HA!  Not at all.

It's freaking freezing out.  My eyeballs froze.  

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Lunch Date

Woo hoo, I have a lunch date with Charro tomorrow.  Well, she's bringing me lunch and will sit there and she will watch me eat it.  I have no idea what she's bringing, but I'm sure french fries will be involved.  She said something about McDonald's and veggie burgers and I was like, "Um, they don't have veggie burgers."  I do know they have breakfast all day long.  So, while I'm sitting there eating whatever the hell she's getting me, I told her she needs to tell me about the night she got her tattoo, which she has since removed but I can still see the remnants of it on her ankle.  She said it's a good story and she'll tell me.  It gets awkward with the whole money thing because I ask her what I owe her but she says "Nothing."  I guess she can write it off.  I don't know.  Oh well, it will be interesting.

It's going to be freezing the next few days.  I'll get through it.  So far this winter has been a breeze compared to last, but there's still time for all hell to break loose.  Hopefully it won't, and it will stay on the "warm" side.  I'm escaping in two weeks anyway, so that will be nice.  TJ Maxx and Marshalls need to up their supply of bikinis because right now it's pretty poor!  I guess I can find some down South, not that I'm really having a bikini shortage.  

It looks like it's going to snow.  I finally took down my Christmas tree and vacuumed all of the needles up.  My apartment looks huge now.  I was so bored that I actually did yoga too.  I'm not really sure what came over me with that.  I think my back is actually a little sore from it.  Weird.  I want to get more flexible so I'll give it a shot. I can do it in my apartment, which makes it good because I can't stand to hear people breathe and I don't want to waste an hour at the gym doing yoga.

I'm hoping to get tickets to a show tonight.  We'll see if I get lucky.  I love musicals!


Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Dreaming, not California dreaming

I haven't had an ED dream in a while, but I had one last night.

I was going to see Charro at a different time than usual.  I think I was seeing her around 1 or 2 pm and I was coming from having lunch with some friends.  I go up the stairs and open the door to her waiting room, which looked more like the DMV.  There were so many people in there and it was loud.  Everyone was talking to each other.  There were three levels, like one step up each, of the room.  I walked into the room and saw one person I knew very well but hadn't talked to in a while.  As I was walking up to be near the office, I heard a few girls calling my name.  I tried to ignore them but they ran over and hugged me.  They asked what I was doing there and I lied and said that I was popping in to see a friend who works there.

Charro walked out and gestured with her hands for me to come in.  I walked in with her and this other lady and tried to make it look like we were friends rather than her my therapist, because I knew people were watching.  I walk in to round tables and one lady tells me to sit down.  At my table was my friend H, she's so anorexic it's not even funny and I'm not quite sure how no one says anything to her. (That's her in real life.  She's 50 years old and looks like a skeleton.  My parents run into her now and then and always comment to me about how horrible she looks.  She lives in the town I'm from).  She then moved to the table next to me.  She was wearing a black pants suit with a v-neck blazer.  

At my table was 4 therapist/doctor people and two other disordered people.  Some lady sat next to me and they started bringing out food.  I was freaking out because I had just eaten and I had to now eat again and I didn't even know I was coming here to eat this huge meal.  People started eating and the therapist lady next to me said, "Go ahead and start eating."  I told her that I was waiting for Charro to sit down.  I didn't want to be rude.  So, Charro finally sat down and I started eating this thing that looked like a tamale.  It had black beans in it and a strange texture.  I was drinking my water.  They had a ton of food on the table, but stuff I didn't eat, like meat and fish.  I went to go take a sip of my water and it was gone, it was replaced with sour tasting chocolate milk in a bluish wine glass.  I took a sip and said, "This tastes sour."  They didn't care.  

I remember thinking that I didn't want my friend H to see me eating this food because she would think it was so disgusting and that I was going to get huge.  I guess she had to eat it too, since she was in there, but she just kept looking over at my table. 

Then I woke up.  Charro will love this dream.  

Saturday, January 02, 2016

Christmas Recap

I've had a nice, lazy break from NYC for the past 11 days.  I came back last night.  Let's see, what has happened...

On my last sesh with Charro, she brought me chips and a cranberry juice.  Awesome.  The cranberry juice had 51 grams of sugar in it.  Oh, let me mention that 10 minutes before I got to my sesh, which I got to a minute late because I was with my friend, I had smores and hot chocolate.  Neither of which I wanted, but my friend wanted to treat me for my birthday.  I usually don't pass up chocolate, but I really haven't been in the mood for since I was baking with it for a few weeks.  Anyway, she ordered smores for us and made me get a hot chocolate too.  We have about 10 minutes to eat the stuff before I had to leave for my sesh, so I brought the hot chocolate with me to Charro.  She made me drink that too.  It was not a fun sesh, eating all that crap after I had just eaten stuff.  Then she said I needed to eat dinner, which really didn't happen because all of this food happened between 4-5:30.  

Christmas Eve and Christmas Day I felt disgusting after eating, like really gross, like I wanted to throw.  I worked out and went for a run Christmas Eve and went for a run again on Christmas Day because it was so warm out.  I was in shorts and a tank top and it was 68 degrees, which is unheard of and I wanted to enjoy every minute of it.

I spent the week and a half relaxing.  I'd go to the gym and then pretty much stay in my pjs all day and watch Hallmark movies.  I loved it.  Now I'm back and the Hallmark Christmas movies are over, which is very sad.  I am in Christmas music withdrawal too.

So, that's about it.  I had a nice Christmas with my family and now winter has arrived.  Brr.  Happy 2016.