Friday, October 31, 2014

No Charro = Gym

I got to go to the gym this morning because I didn't have Charro.  She took the day off and I hopped on over to the gym.  I got a little extra sleep too, which was nice.  It was kind of nice to not have to walk down there this morning and to not have WIF.  I don't mind not having WIF.  Maybe I should cut back to one day a week, to the office where there is no scale. :)

I LOVE Halloween.  Can't wait to go out all dressed up tonight.  I love getting all dressed up for Halloween. It makes me happy.

Tomorrow is going to be cold and rainy, so after I teach my two aerobics classes, I can come home and sleep and maybe do a little baking and then babysit.  Yay.  Sunday is going to be freezing with 40 mph wind.  I am glad I am not running the stupid marathon.  I'll freeze my ass off at field hockey, but you burn more calories in the cold, so it's all good. ;)  Ha.

Back to Charro with my little cereal bowl on Monday.  She'd have to confiscate my whole cabinet to get rid of all of my mini bowls.  I have a million of them.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

The Bowl

I had my cereal out of a different bowl this morning, but I put it next to "the bowl" that I have to give to Charro, and it's really about the same size.  I have a lot of little bowls so getting rid of one really isn't going to  do anything.  Even if I ate out of a "normal" sized bowl, like she wants me to, I'm not going to eat the amount of cereal that she wants me to.  I don't need a huge bowl of cereal in the morning.  I like to eat a little amount, go work out and then eat more when I get home at some point.  Hmm, I'm a problem, I guess.

I don't know how I'm going to get out of giving her my heart rate monitor.  I have a feeling I'm not going to be able to.  I'm trying to figure out how I can give her just one of them, the broken one, and keep the one that works.  Although, I think they might both work now, I don't know.  Whatever, I am non-compliant and am only hurting myself.  It is what it is.

Monday, October 27, 2014

Bowl and heart rate monitor

Okay, so I didn't bring my little bowl to Charro today, mainly because I ran to my sesh and I didn't want it bouncing around and hitting me in the back the whole time.  

First things first, let's talk about the fact that I ran for really the first time in over 4 months.  I feel okay too.  Yay.  I stopped a lot when I had to cross the street because I didn't have the light, but it was good because my heart rate was getting too high, which normally I wouldn't care about but I want to make sure my head is okay.  I think it is! :)  I felt fine after field hockey, and surprisingly I'm not even sore from it.  Crazy.

Okay, back to the bowl.  I told Charro I would not use it until I bring it to her.  She said I have to give it to her next Monay and then the following Monday I have to give her my heart rate monitor.  Ugh, she's wanted that thing from me for a long time now and I've always managed to get away without giving it to her.  Let's see if she forgets again.  I hope so.  Then she goes, "I know you have two so you have to bring both of them to me."  Hmm, I was like, "Why do you think I have two?"  She was like, "I know you do.  You told me."  Grrr.  This is not okay.  Then she said she liked my watch so she'd get to wear it.  She said, "I was admiring your watch." 

So I had to take pictures of my lunch, preparation, eating it, and when I was done a picture of the bowl, and send it to Charro.  Of course she responded and said that I needed to have a delicious dinner.  Sure, it was good, what I ate, but it wasn't really dinner.  I suck at eating.  I can admit that.  I don't see Charro again until next week so I won't be admitting that to her because I'll probably forget by then.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

I went to Charro's house

I had a dream I went to hang out with a friend who was babysitting outside the city.  When I got there, I realized it was Charro's house.  Well, I didn't know until I got inside and saw a family picture.  I was a little bit freaked out, yet very curious, about being in her house.  I thought things were okay until I realized that she was still home and upstairs.  I knew that she would be uncomfortable with me being there and I would feel weird about it too.  

I was sitting on a chair in the family room talking to my friend when she came down the stairs.  I turned the other way so I wouldn't look at her and she would hopefully not see that it was me.  I didn't want her to know that I knew that I was in her house, so I figured that if I never saw her, she wouldn't know that I knew where I was.  Well, she obviously saw me because she went back upstairs and when she came back down she was in this really curly reddish-blonde wig.  When she walked out the door I looked at her and totally pretended that I didn't know it was her.  I was in the clear for a bit, until we all ended up in the same car going back into the city.  However, we weren't in the city, we were right by my high school.  Weird.  I still think I pretended not to know it was here in order to not make her feel uncomfortable.  So, that's really all I remember.  She'll love hearing this one tomorrow.

I'm going to attempt to play field hockey for the first time in, well, forever today.  My doctor didn't exactly say it was okay for me to play.  His exact words were, "I don't recommend it."  I have a feeling that it probably won't go well, in many ways.  My head has been hurting since Friday.  Friday I had a bad headache and it's since gotten better, but I can still feel that my head is not right.  I'll take it easy and be smart.  I might end up only playing for 5 minutes. :(  Hopefully that is not the case.


Friday, October 24, 2014

Bowl Confiscation

Charro has informed me that I MUST bring in my cereal bowl and give it to her on Monday.  She says I need to eat out of a normal sized bowl and eat at least 2 cups of cereal.  Hmm, I don't think I can eat that much cereal.  She said that if we wouldn't get arrested for hurting someone, we could toss it out of her window from the 10th floor and break it.  We both decided that that wasn't a great idea, although we also decided that it would either his scaffolding or someone wearing a hard hat because that seems to be what her street consists of.

I wore my WIF jeans.  She noticed and said something about them.  I said, "They're fun and happy."  She then asked me what was in my pocket.  I responded with "keys and tissues."  She said she'd subtract for that.  I told her to make sure she subtracted a lot for the tissues because they weigh a lot. ;)

So, that's that.  I'm only seeing her once next week because of our schedules.  No WIF next week, which will be nice. :)

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Here comes WIF

Yesterday, Charro asked me how my has been.  I said "fine," because I don't really know how to answer that.  Well, I think it was "fine" and then yesterday and today it has kind of sucked.  I sort of forget about lunch so I eat a little something when I remember, which has been around 2 PM.  Last night I had french toast for dinner and when I got home, I had a little salad because I felt like I should eat something else.  I should probably figure out what to have for dinner tonight, especially since tomorrow is WIF and if I'm not "up there" it will not be a good situation.  I got the WIF Warning yesterday.  Hmm.  Maybe she'll forget to WIF me again.  I doubt that.

This weather is absolutely gross.  Cold, rainy and windy.  Yuck.  I hope the rain stops before I have to go out tonight.

Wednesday, October 22, 2014

WIF Warning

It's tea drinking season...that time of year when you can't turn your heat on because it's not "cold" enough for it to work, yet it's too cold in your apartment.  I guess a space heater would be nice to have.

I saw Charro this morning.  I told her about the crazy Kruger dream I had, which sort of made sense because I saw a woman who looked just like her the other night.  So, that was that.  Charro said that I better be up on WIF.  She said, "I'm warning you."  I said, "You're giving me a WIF Warning?"  She said yes.  At least she didn't weigh me today, I would have been screwed.  I told her that I am going to eat a piece of the pumpkin bread that I made, which weighs about 3000 pounds for some reason, before I come in for WIF.  She was like, "Don't do that.  That's disordered."  Then she said something about not eating before WIF, but she didn't mean for me not to eat so I said, "Oh, you don't want me to eat?"  She was like, "What is this, a comedy skit?"  Maybe. :)

So, I must get ready for WIF.  She goes, "Now that you're wearing more clothes you need to weigh more."  That wasn't exactly what she said, but close enough.

My hip is tight today and my foot keeps going numb, wtf? 

Monday, October 20, 2014

Ew, jeans shopping

So much for that feeling of not feeling fat.  That disappeared Friday night, shortly after I wrote about how I don't feel that way much.  Ha, awesome.  I went out and looked huge.  I hated my outfit.  I felt huge again the next day.  Today, I went shopping and looked huge in the mirror at TJ Maxx.  I bought jeans, not sure if I'll keep them.  I hate jeans shopping.  My hamthighs are huge and my saddlebags.  So not okay!!  Ugh.  I want to look like Sandra Bullock in The Heat, which I'm currently watching, because she is skinny and like a stick.  Must be nice.

That's all.  I'll see skinny singers tomorrow night too, which I'm sure will make me feel great about myself.

Friday, October 17, 2014

Forgotten WIF

Charro forgot to weigh me today.  I didn't bring it up with her either, I just walked out. :)  Maybe she didn't want to weigh me after our pumpkin scone breakfast and my drinking a gallon of water with my medicine.  Who knows.  Who cares.  I'm sure she'll make up for it next week.

It's a beautiful day out.  It's probably the last time I'll be able to wear flip flops until I go to Florida in January.  Sad day. :(

Charro helped me with my list of questions to ask the neurologist on Monday.  I told her I'd let her know how everything goes.  Hopefully he will recommend that I get an MRI.  She told me to take my time in there and ask a lot of questions so I don't come out of there with "I don't know" answers.

I told Charro how I don't obsess about my body much anymore.  She said I've worked hard to get here.  I don't see it, but okay.  I told her that I have her to thank.

Okay, back to work.

Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Breakfast and WIF

I feel like I have nothing to talk about with Charro these days.  It's funny how you can go from having so much to say one week to having nothing the next.  We're having breakfast on Friday, that will be fun.  There was some sarcasm there.  I chose Friday as our breakfast day so I will weigh more for WIF.  Clever, right?  :)  Let's just hope she doesn't want to weigh me before we eat because that would suck.

I just looked down and saw that I look pregnant.  Probably the way I'm sitting so I should straighten up.  Okay, fixed my posture. 

Charro forgot to WIF me on Friday.  I reminded her, although I'm not sure why, probably because had on boots so they weighed a lot.  She always tells me to "keep going," and I'm not really into the "keep going" thing so I won't. 

My life has been uneventful ED wise, so I guess that's a good thing, which is why I haven't written much.  It's been very exciting in other aspects.  So, that's that.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

It's been a week

I've really been slacking in the posting on here, but I guess that's good.  I've been super busy, in a fun way, and just really haven't had time.  I don't have anything special to say.  I'm enjoying my weekend with some good music, fun, friends and family.  Spent some time with my favorite singer. 

I got an email this morning from the psychologist I went on vacation with.  She asked how I was doing and if I got fired from therapy.  I thought that was sweet.  She checks her emails every 9 years, so I don't expect her to read my response until 2038.  (Yes, that is more than 9 years).  I have something to give to her so maybe I'll see if she wants to get together this week. 

I should be doing laundry but I don't feel like it.  Oh well. 

I got excited and started jumping up and down at the concert I was at last night and my head started hurting a little.  It was not a bad headache at all, just could tell that the jumping had an impact on my head and the concussion situation has not resolved itself yet.  I go to the doctor next week.  I hope I get some sort of answer, or at least hope he tells me to get an MRI or CT scan or something.  I want to know something.  I want to play field hockey NOW!!

Sunday, October 05, 2014

Fun days

My blogger is being weird.  Oh well.

I've been crazy busy and have had no time to write anything.  I've pretty much just been home to sleep.  Right now I'm curled up on the couch with my little guy.  I'll probably end up going back out in a bit, but I really hope not.

I'm not seeing Charro tomorrow because she's got something going on.  I passed WIF on Friday.  She didn't say a word to me when I stepped on the scale so I'm assuming everything was fine.  I had lots of clothes on. 

I did something that I shouldn't have on Thursday, and I'm not sure if it was running a few blocks outside or jumping rope, because I was a little spacey after that and had a tiny tiny headache.  I have to wait another 2 weeks before I see the neurologist, but I'm sure I won't get any answers so it will be a pointless appointment.  At least give me a scan of some sort.

My feet hurt.  I want to play field hockey.  I want to sleep a lot tonight.  I want to run.

I have a FUN week coming up.  I cannot wait.  That's all.  Lots of fun going on here.

Wednesday, October 01, 2014

Still a good head

I ran again this morning, and I was okay!!  I'm very excited about this.  I only did 2 miles again before heading over to the elliptical, but I think I'll try for 4 this weekend.  I think I can do it and be okay.  I guess we'll find out.  If my head feels weird after that, then I'll know that I pushed it too far.  I still think I'm ready to play field hockey and might just do that next weekend.  We shall see.  EVERYONE says I should not do it.  Charro wasn't so thrilled when I told her that I ran, but whatever, she can't stop me.  If I feel fine, there's no reason why I can't do it.

I have the hugest knot in my calf.  I've had it for a week and have been working on it for a few days now but it's not going away.  It's annoying, but whatever.

Charro on Friday.  I asked her what my weight was the other day and she said it was the same.  I said, "so why did you tell me that I have to gain weight?"  She said she just thinks I should gain some more.  I disagree and will not.  I told her that she's going to keep telling me that until I'm 237 pounds.  She was like, "Why would I want that?"  Let's be honest, my weight has been the same for years, I don't think it's changing anytime soon.