Friday, May 31, 2013

No sneakers

I'm not bringing my sneakers on vacation.  I am going to run, but I run on the beach barefoot, so I shouldn't need my sneakers.  I figure, even if it's raining, it will still be hot enough to run on the beach.  I can't wait to jump into that water!!

Charro says I need to own up to my ED.  If I'm going to be disordered, she says, at least own up to it.  I would own up to it if it meant that I wouldn't get weighed in there.  I would totally be like, "listen, I'm eating less because I want to lose weight," but only if she wasn't weighing me.  We didn't have WIF today, not that I thought we would because we had WIW, which she loves saying and said about three times on Wednesday.  She will most definitely WIF me when I see her on June 14th.  I'll be ready to go.

I think she's afraid I'm not going to eat while I'm on vacation.  Let's be honest, the sun is way more important to me than food is, so we'll see what happens.  I will eat when I'm hungry, and I do eat when I'm hungry.  In fact, I'm hungry right now so I'll eat something when I'm done writing this post.

I told Charro I'd check in with her and send her pics of me swimming with the sea turtles.  I can't wait to do that.  I hope my friend and I get along okay on this trip.  We've never traveled together before.  I'm sure it will be fine, we're both pretty laid back.

I think I finished packing and I packed pretty light, for once.  I have a lot of space left in my suitcase.  I should get an SPF 20 because I go from SPF 12 to SPF 45.  I need something around 15 or 20.  I'll check out the drug store.

Okay, I guess I should get back to cleaning.

Thursday, May 30, 2013

I love when...

  • I feel enormously fat
  • I have fat rolls exploding from my body
  • I get to teach aerobics feeling and looking this way.
  • Everyone gets to see my exploding fat rolls as I teach aerobics.

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Surprise WIW

Well, we had a surprise WIW in my sesh tonight.  Awesome!  Charro thought it was necessary since I've had a "major resurgence of my eating disorder."  Really?  I told her that I was not having a "major resurgence."  She still felt the need to have WIW.  Here's the deal, I usually get weighed in the morning, so getting weighed at 6 at night is much better because at least I've eating more and had more to drink.  Here is the problem, it was my first time getting weighed where I wasn't wearing jeans and a lot of other clothes.  It was hot so I was in shorts and a t-shirt.  Luckily it's freezing in her office so I had a light sweatshirt on.  That helped a little.  Anyway, I obviously weighed less because I was wearing fewer clothes.  Actually, I think I weighed about the same, maybe one pound less, but Charro wasn't thrilled.  She said that I have to gain weight and that I can NOT lose weight.  I was the number she said I need to be on her scale, so I don't know what the problem was.  I did have my flip flops on, which she commented about.  She goes, "interesting that you have your shoes on."  I said, "I always wear them in the summer."  I said, "I weigh exactly what I weighed on Friday," but she didn't buy that one, which was true, I think.  Like I said, maybe I was a pound lower, but I wasn't wearing as many clothes.  I really don't want to go back to this getting weighed every week thing again.  It sucks.  She said it's my choice, go back to the ED or not.  She said that I need to just fess up if that's what I want to do, she can't force me to do anything.  Ugh, I don't know.  I definitely have been eating less (restricting, as she says, but I hate that word).  I told her because it's bikini season.

I see her again on Friday and then I'm out of here for vacation.  I get back on Thursday but she's not around on Friday so I won't see her when I usually do.  So, it will be just over a week, but it will be fine.  She will most definitely weigh me that Friday I do see her.  I'll be ready.

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Attack of the hamthighs

I sat next to a girl on the train today and she had stick legs.  I was mortified by the size of my hamthighs.  I know she was looking at them and thinking how huge they are.  I wanted to throw.  Seriously, this girl's legs were nice and skinny, and mine were like 5 times the size of hers.  Not okay.

Sunday, May 26, 2013

Winter in May, NOT ok

It's seriously like winter here and that is NOT okay.  I had a dream that I was on a tropical island, swimming in the crystal clear waters.  That dream will become reality in 6 days.  Yay!!  I just bought some flippers for snorkeling.

I'm definitely having more ED stuff going on lately.  I can tell from my dreams and my thoughts.  Not sure what that's all about, but I do know that I just want to eat less and weigh a little less.  Actually, I don't even care about my weight right now, I just want a concave stomach.

I go away for a week.  I would normally be back to see Charro next Friday, but she will be off that day.  She goes away at the end of July for two weeks.  Her, annual trip to Italy.  I guess that will give me more time home at the pool, which I'm okay with.  I feel like I have more to talk to her about these days.

I would have totally taken a nap today if I was at my apartment, but I'm home with my parents and nephews, so I won't be doing that.  It's 5 PM now anyway, so it's past nap time.  I have to make a dessert later.

I think the guy I'm seeing is coming here tomorrow.  That's a big move, meeting the parents.  I don't think it means anything, actually.  Charro will love that one when I tell her though.  I have lots to talk to her about on Wednesday, hopefully she won't have a surprise WIW.  I don't think she will since we had a surprise WIF on Friday.

I guess I'll go sit with everyone.

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Dream, Dream, Dream

I'll start with last night's dream.  I was on a "cruise" to Barbados.  I say "cruise" because it wasn't a huge cruise ship, but more like a little boat that would take you around New York City on a dinner cruise.  We got on the boat and our parents were all allowed to get on it for the dinner and sale, and then they were going to get dropped off before we headed to Barbados. 

People were walking around, exploring the boat, watching the water and listening to music.  Well, Charro was on the boat with some people.  I tried to see what she was doing without her knowing.  They were getting ready to serve dinner and it started thundering and lightening.  People ran down from the top deck and the people inside shut the windows so the rain wouldn't come in.  I guess we ate dinner, I don't really remember, but the next thing I know we're on a smaller boat, it was flat so you could touch the water.  So I touched the water, this girl from high school (Jen) touched the water, and then my dad was touching the water.  I told my dad to be careful because he was getting too close to the water and he can't swim.  He fell into the water and the boat kept going.  Jen jumped in after him.  I yelled, "He can't swim!!  Man overboard.  Man overboard!"  Another man jumped in.  He had gone under water.  I had jumped in and started swimming towards him but I was too far away and couldn't swim that fast.  The man pulled him up, we got him back on the boat, but he was unconscious.  The man did CPR on him and revived him.  I was crying.  I woke up breathing heavy.

At some point in my dream the people on the boat were all in my house.  I was getting ready to eat breakfast and got my bowl of cereal ready.  I left it on the counter while I did stuff.  I heard someone in the family room say to Charro, "Did you see her little bowl of cereal?  Did you see that thing?"  I got mad that people were talking about me.  I knew Charro had seen it.  I went back to eat my cereal and my bowl was gone.  I asked my mom where it went and she said that she threw it away.  I started yelling at her really loud and very angrily.  "Why did you throw it away, that's my breakfast!!  Why would you do that?!"  I kept yelling and yelling at her.  I don't know what happened next.

The night before I had a dream about food too.  Long story short, I left my food to go to the bathroom and came back and it was gone.  I was starving and was mad that they took my food away.  Hmm, I guess there's a theme there.  I know why I'm having these food dreams, probably because I'm "restricting" (I HATE that word) a little and I went to bed hungry.

I have whiplash.  I dove playing softball and now my neck is sore.  Oh well.

Friday, May 24, 2013

Almost exposed

The first thing I do when I get to Charro's office is take off my shoes.  Well, today I exposed a little weight that was in my ankle area when I did that.  I quickly covered it and I don't think she noticed, but the whole time I was thinking, "What if she saw that?"  Anyway, it was a good thing that I was a little "weighted down" today because she weighed me.  So much for these "surprise WIFs" that seem to happen every two-three weeks.  I was ready, luckily.  :)

I'm kind of too cold to type right now and need to take care of some things and be on my merry way to hang out with a friend.  It's awful out.  Cold and rainy.  This weather really bites the big one!

Thursday, May 23, 2013

I'm hungry but I'm not eating.  Is that a problem, possibly?  Do I think it is?  No, not really.  I can't deal with how my stomach looks and I need to fix that.

I really need to go to bed.  I'm tired.  My hair is wet from the downpour that I got stuck in at 4:15 this afternoon.  Yep, still soaked from that.  I have very thick hair.  I guess I need to dry it before I go to bed.

I bought cherries and ate a lot of them.  I love cherries.  If I eat too many, my colitis isn't happy.  Maybe I should eat a lot of them.  If I was going to be home tomorrow, I would, but I don't want to take any chances with that.

I think it's diet time

Okay, I'm fat.  Why do I keep getting fatter?  I don't like it and I'm not okay with it!  Maybe I should have a breakdown in Charro's office tomorrow.  That wouldn't really accomplish much, I guess, but maybe I will do it anyway.  (Probably not).  I just can't take it.  I'll have to wear a really loose shirt when I go teach tonight.  I don't want people seeing all of my fat rolls.  I should have worked out longer this morning.  Blah!  I need to go on a diet.

I hope I don't have a mental breakdown on vacation, that would suck.  I don't think that will happen, at least not externally.

I got caught in a major downpour when I got off the subway today.  It was all good.  So I got soaked, who cares.  I made sure all of my important stuff didn't get wet.

My cat will not eat her food and her medicine is in it.  She really needs to eat it.  I really need to get dressed.

I bet Charro weighs me tomorrow.  I'll be in sweatpants because I'm going to a softball game after, so I can make things work wearing those.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Just like the weather

Today's weather kind of stunk.  On Monday, I told Charro that I might email Tuesday night after an event I had.  Well, it was uneventful so I didn't email her until this morning.  I said one sentence about it and then discussed the weather.   She calls me "MC" for meteorologist, so I give her the weather a lot. So I emailed her and said that it was "freezing out."  She wrote back and said, "Umm I'm concerned you might be having a psychotic episode... This is freezing? I'm boiling! Can't wait for some rain..."  She's funny.

I still need to get a flat stomach.  I'm not sure what's going to happen with that.  I keep telling Charro that and she tells me that I need to "change my thoughts."  Um, I can't do that.


A wild turkey walked through my back yard tonight.  It was funny.

Tuesday, May 21, 2013

Am I having a baby?

A bike ride and some field hockey made for a nice day today.  The weather was great.  I so did not feel like running this morning, hence the bike ride.  It wasn't the best cardio, but it was good enough.

I'm exhausted right now so I have to get off of the phone and go to bed.  I have to dry my hair, brush my teeth and crawl into bed.

I seriously look like I'm 87 months pregnant.  Yes, I said 87.  Not loving that at all.  It needs to go away NOW.

Monday, May 20, 2013

Things I told Charro today

Here's what I told Charro today.  I told her that I want to look like Kelly Ripa.  I would rather try on bikinis in the dead of winter when I'm pasty white than try on jeans.  I don't want to eat.  I have wanted chocolate chip cookies for about three weeks now and refuse to make them because I don't want to eat them.  She asked if I was afraid I was going to binge on them and I said no, which I'm not because I have never binged on anything in my life, so that isn't my fear, I just don't think I should be eating them at all.  She told me that that is disordered thinking.  I know.  She said I was restricting.  I said, "I'm restricting chocolate chip cookies."  She did request some cookies if I do make them.  She also requested the recipe because she wants a good recipe.  I told her that I don't have a good recipe but if she likes the ones I make, then I will give the recipe to her. 

Charro told me to think about my dad crying whenever I want to not eat or something.  She said something about how I'll kill myself by not eating and that my dad would be so upset.  It wasn't quite that dramatic, but it was a little bit.  I'm not going to starve myself to death, that's for sure!

Without a doubt, there will be a WIF in the near future.  If she thinks I'm not eating, she's going to WIF me.  She will definitely weigh me before I go away, so that means it will happen either this Friday or next.  She's also going to weigh me when I get back, because that's usually what she does.  I'll be ready, as much as I can.  It's kind of hard now that it's shorts season.  I need it to be cold on Fridays so I can wear jeans.

I didn't have lunch today, but that wasn't on purpose.  I left for Charro at 10:45 AM.  I would have gotten home at 1:30, at which point I would have had lunch.  However, I ended up babysitting and didn't get home until 5 PM.  I just finished my lunch/dinner.

I'm just seeing the tornado damage in Oklahoma.  Those poor people...

Sunday, May 19, 2013

What I should resolve to do

I think I should resolve to stop eating.  That's the only way I will look the way that I want to look.  Hmm, should I tell Charro that one tomorrow?  I think if I tell her that she'll tell me that I have to start keeping a stupid food log again and I do NOT want that.  I really just need to start running my ass off and eat less.  That's how it has to be.

She asked me what was going on with the weighing the other day and I told her I weigh myself twice a week.  She didn't have anything to say about that, I guess because she feels it's better than me weighing myself 50x/day like I use to.  She's probably given up on me and the weighing thing.  Clearly me not weighing myself for 41 days did nothing for me, not that I expected that it would. Stuff like that doesn't work for me, it just makes me want to do it more when I get it back.

Guess it's time for me to go to sleep.  I thought about running to my sesh tomorrow but I think I'll work out and then walk there and save the running for Tuesday when it's going to be really nice out.

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Oh Youtube

I should have been cleaning my apartment tonight, but instead I watched Tracey Gold eating disorder stuff on youtube.  Now I shall go to bed.

Hip nightmare

I have a stinky dream last night.  I dreamt that I went to the doctor for my hip and it wasn't my regular doctor, it was some woman with an accent.  She said that I was going to have to have surgery and she was going to do it that day.  I freaked out and was like, "Where is Dr. B?  I am not having surgery.  My hip doesn't even hurt so there is no need for me to have it right now.  It just burns and gets really tights, but it doesn't hurt so I'm not having surgery.  I think I got out of there before it happened, but I was lying down on the bed.  Maybe I just woke up, who knows.  I know I did not like that dream one bit.  I don't think my hip was bothering me at all yesterday, so it's weird that I had that dream.

I'm tired and can't wait to go to bed.  I should clean my apartment tonight.  I need to shower.  That's about all.  It's cold and drizzly out. Yuck. 

Thursday, May 16, 2013

Beach booked

Well, I'm going to be chillin' near the equator in less than 3 weeks.  I just booked a trip with a friend last night.  I can't wait.  Sun, sand, sea turtles, swimming, sunrises, sunsets and PALM TREES!!  Woo hoo.  I can't wait.  Apparently I am excited about this because I woke up at 5 AM.  That's not okay!  I emailed Charro to let her know that I will not be here June 1,2.  She emailed me back to tell me that it was nice I let her know that I won't be here those days, but that it's a Saturday and Sunday.  Haha.  I responded by saying that I thought she'd be interested in my weekend schedule.

I'm tired.  I've been doing stuff on Excel all day, which I do love me some Excel, but enough's enough.  I might take a little siesta outside.  I love that I have nothing to do (besides work) today until I have to teach aerobics.  Maybe I'll throw in some laundry.

Yesterday was National Chocolate Chip Cookie Day.  I did not have one. 

I weighed myself this morning and didn't like the number, but if I get a surprise WIF tomorrow, it will make things a little better.  I'm still way under what she wants me to be.  Oh well.

Wednesday, May 15, 2013

Miss Stephanie

Stephanie was in my dream last night.  I dreamt that I was walking through the hall, probably where she works, and I walk right by her.  I didn't recognize her because she had lost a lot of weight.  She was wearing white pants and a light shirt, that I do know.  I guess I had a sesh with her after having not seen her in a long time because then I had a sesh with her.  It was weird because one of my friends was sitting there with me.  I started talking about something that happened at a dinner I was at and she was telling me about what it supposed to happen at this type of dinner.  (It was a Jewish thing, so she was explaining it to me).  I don't really know what else we talked about, but it was really nice to see her.  I guess she had missed me too and was happy to see me.  When our sesh was over, I put on my coat and she put hers on, because she was done for the day, and I got ready to leave.  She came over to me and said it was so good to see me and that if I wanted to come back in a few weeks, I could.  I could tell she wanted to give me a hug, then she came over and hugged me.  It was a funny hug because our jackets were so tight that we could bend our arms.  I said, "That was a like dancing at a 6th grade dance."  (You know, when you dance with straight arms about 10 feet away from the guy you're dancing with?)  We laughed and I ran out of there because I had to teach aerobics.

At one point I had a huge cheeseburger in my hand.  I don't know when that was, if it was after or what.  I know I was very self-conscious eating it because it was not something I would normally eat.  I didn't want people to see me eating such a monstrosity of a burger with so much fat and calories.  I remember nibbling at it so I wouldn't devour it.  The strange part of this dream is that I don't even eat meat.  I haven't had a hamburger since 8th grade.  Weird.

I think I might be getting a little more obsessive with food and stuff these days.  Not ready to tell Charro that yet.  I'm sure she'll figure it out.  WIF is not going to be fun through the summer, that is for sure.  I hope my flip flops weigh a good two pounds.  They need to make up for my lack of clothing.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

I had quite the fiber filled dinner this evening, spinach, broccoli and beans.  I'm sure that's a great dinner for someone with colitis.  Ha, oh well.  I'm on a mission to eat "healthier," which actually translates to eating less, if I'm going to be perfectly honest.

I was going to run outside today but it was too cold.  I went to the gym and ran 3 miles (not enough) and then did the elliptical for 30 minutes.  I walked a bit too, but not really that much, maybe 3 miles.  I need to get my stomach to be concave. 

I feel like I'm wasting my night being inside, but it's cold out.  It's going to get nice on Thursday.  The sky is beautiful right now though.  Maybe I'll do some work.  Tomorrow I have a busy day so I should do some work tonight to get it done.

I wonder if Charro is going to weigh me on Friday.  I hate having to always wonder this.  It's really annoying.  I'm never going to be done with these stupid "random WIFs."

Monday, May 13, 2013

Feels like March out there

My life got a little less hectic today, which is nice.  :)  It was freezing out, by the way.  Actually, it still is, but I'm inside now so it's okay.

My sesh with Charro was fine.  I told her how I hate my fat stomach and she told me (as usual) that I have to change my thoughts.  I told her how I could go on about my stomach and ham thighs if she wanted me to.  She said she would rather that I get deeper than that.  I told her that I can't get deeper, I want to but I don't know how.  I really wish I did know how.

I afraid of my next surprise WIF.  I wonder if she'll try to do it this week.  I'm sick of this WIF business. 

Oh, so I was in Brooklyn yesterday and was constantly looking over my shoulder for Charro.  There's a good possibility that I was in her neighborhood.  I kept my eyes peeled for a woman with a yellow lab and a double stroller.  I did not see her.  I told her that I was worried about seeing her and she goes, "You know I wouldn't say hi."  I said, "Then I would look really stupid if I said hi to you and I was completely ignored."  She clarified that she would say hi if I said hi to her, but would not initiate the "hi."  Oooh, gotcha!  Makes perfect sense.  I told her that if I saw her, I'd probably just give her a look.

I need chapstick and a glass of water...in that order!

Sunday, May 12, 2013

Riding that train

I had a dream that Charro and I were having a sesh in my bedroom at my house.  I was matching socks on my bed while she was standing there.  The phone rang and some guy answered and it was for Charro.  He said, "Hold on, she's right her."  She yelled back, "Tell him he needs to reach me on my cell phone."  It was her old boyfriend, with a really Italian name.  He was a funeral director in Miami and she wanted to talk to him.  I think she did end up talking to him and I got mad and sick of waiting.  I was in the middle of telling her something and I didn't get to finish.  Then she had to get on a train so I said, "I'll ride with you so we can finish talking.  Well, we were on the train but she was no where to be found.  Then my dad showed up on the train and I got nervous because I was afraid she was going to come back to try and talk to me while he was there.  My stop to get off was coming up too, so I didn't get to talk to Charro at all.  The train was more like a really long trolley too.  It had wooden bench seats.

Saturday, May 11, 2013

Blubbers

Okay, I can't deal with my fat stomach.  I would like to stop eating and/or start working out more.  We'll see what happens.  Maybe I should just eat less and keep my working out the same amount.  All I know is that I can't deal with my stomach and I need to get it nice and concave.  Maybe I should freak out during my sesh with Charro on Monday, although I have to fill her in on a continuing saga taking place.

Time for bed.  I had something else I was going to write about but can't remember what it was.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Mangos

I feel like I had a good sesh with Charro this morning.  What made it even better is that she didn't weigh me. :)  What's going to really suck is when she weighs me when I'm wearing shorts and a tank top because I'll be royally screwed....Like Queen of England royal.

I should write down some of the stuff we talked about today so I can talk about it more on Monday.  I'm not really good at that whole continuation thing.  Good thing I'm not a sitcom because I like to solve everything in one episode.

I just bought a mango for the first time ever.  I'm not sure how I feel about it.  I tasted it and parts of it had a good taste and parts of it had a yucky taste.  Not sure what to make of it.  I can't even describe the taste, but I do know that it's now stuck in my teeth.

Crapbags, I have to give my cat his IV.

Thursday, May 09, 2013

Rained out

I was supposed to go for a bike ride with the guy I'm seeing today, but it's raining.  Yuck.  Instead we're going to go to Target.  :)  I'm going to take advantage of his car and use that beast.  Maybe I'll make him dinner.  My repertoire isn't that extensive, so it would probably be macaroni.  I'll ask him when he gets here.  I hate my macaroni.  My sauce never comes out like I want it to.

I guess I should probably take a shower since he's going to be here in an hour or so.  Maybe I should just make sauce in case he wants some pasta.  Hmm, I could do that.  That would be nice of me.

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

The Tattoo

Charro has a tattoo, or rather she has what's left of a tattoo.  I've been curious about this since I started going to see her, not really curious, but it so happened that I saw it again the other day, which peaked my curiosity.  I said to her, "when we're done, done here, I'm going to ask you about your tattoo."  She said, "I'll answer your questions about it now."  I said, "Okay, when did you get it?  What was it?  When did you get it removed?"  She said it was a sunflower (and Italian thing) and she got it when she was 18 and decided to get it removed 10 years ago.  It was on her ankle, by the way.  So, that was the tattoo thing.

This was funny, Charro was talking more about her picture and she goes, "Wouldn't it be funny if you put it as your Facebook profile picture?"  I cracked up.  Only one person I know would know who it was, and that's because she worked with her.  That would absolutely hysterical, though I would never do it because people would be like "Who is that?"  That's not really the only reason why I wouldn't do it, but it's a good one.

I guess I'll eat breakfast now so I can go to the gym.  I wanted to weigh myself this morning but I didn't.  Points for me.  Haha, not really.

Monday, May 06, 2013

Charro is funny

Charro is funny.  Let's just put that out there.  We get stuff accomplished and she is funny, what's better than that.  So her picture is now up on a website and I told her I'd check it out and let her know what I thought about it, because she as concerned and being too critical of herself.  She told me not to photoshop any Charo (the singer) outfits on her.  I totally wish I had photoshop and knew how to use it!  She told me to be completely honest.  I told her that the picture makes her look nice, caring and like a good listener.  I told her that if I had seen it (without knowing her obviously), that I would think she would be someone good to talk to, someone who was caring and nice.  She liked that.  I also told her how it completely freaked me out to look at a picture of her and have her not be alive and animated.  I said, "You just kept staring at me."  She said, "Did you walk around your room to see if I followed you?"  Ha.  I told her I was going to print out her picture and put it on a chair across from and so I could have conversations with it and hold my own therapy seshes.  She said, "That's much more affordable."  Ha.

She was wearing these huge shoes today which made her 9 feet tall.  I felt really short.  She has skinny legs, which drives me batty because I want long, skinny stick legs with no ass.  :(  Maybe I'll tell her that on Friday.  I will say, "I want long, skinny stick legs with no ass" and see what she says.  I don't really want to tell her that she has no ass because that would be rude.  Maybe I should just tell her that I want my legs to look like hers.  Hmm, but then am I dissing her upper body?  Oh, now I'm thinking too much.

I'm so tired of trying to think of things to eat or what to cook.  It's annoying and I don't want to do it anymore.  I'd rather just not eat.  It's rather annoying to cook for oneself.

Sunday, May 05, 2013

That was a deadly run

I ran with my runner friend yesterday.  She was sick, and I was dying.  I really would have been dying if she wasn't sick.  At first, the pace was great, then her she started cranking it.  She said, "I've got a NyQuil high now."  I needed one.  I thought I was going to die.  My heartrate was 189 for a while there, which is way too high.  I was thirsty.  I made the mistake of stopping at the water fountain.  It was a mistake because then I had to sprint to catch up with her.  Then I was really dying.  The run couldn't have been over fast enough.  I ran 7.5 miles, the most I've run in a very long time.  It was a fast run too.  I needed that push.  I wanted to stop but I didn't.  I probably should have, but I couldn't let this lady be better than I am.  I would have enjoyed it more if we ran a bit slower.  It was nice to run with her and catch up.  Let's see how well my legs work during aerobics today.  Of course that run wasn't great for my hip.

Saturday, May 04, 2013

Yesterday's WIF performance

I wanted to type this yesterday but my computer was being stupid.  During WIF, yes, the part where I was actually on the scale, Charro kept moving the lever thing back and forth.  I felt like I was on that damn scale for ever!  She goes, "Alright, not very stellar.  It could be worse, it could be better."  I said, "What's not very stellar?"  She goes, "That performance."  Haha.

Charro told me I have to be more assertive and that I can't be "this passive aggressive."  That in response to me not eating dinner one night when I was mad at something.

I'm going running with a sort of friend today.  She's a big runner, I am clearly not, but it's good.  She's sick so maybe I can keep up with her, since she's hacking up a lung.  Well, let's actually see if she follows through with this because she bags out a lot, which is highly annoying.  I so don't feel like running, so it's good that I have someone to go with.

Why did the temperature just drop three degrees?  It needs to warm up here people.  Okay, it's back up 2 degrees. 

My cats are so darn cute!!

Friday, May 03, 2013

And then there was WIF

Charro thought she was being so sneaky today, not mentioning anything about weighing me until the end of the sesh when she goes, "Come on, let's do WIF."  Hmm, I was ready! :)  You can't fool a fooler.  I said, "Looks like they didn't fix the scale."  She said that they had.  I stood there talking to her as if she was going to forgot to weigh me, as we stood right next to the scale.  Clearly that was not likely to happen.

Charro told me that on Monday she is not doing any talking, that I have to do it all.  I told her I am going to think long and hard about what to talk about and make a list.  I told her that I want to go deep, I just have nothing to go deep about.  She said that that is not true.  She was in my dream last night.

My computer is being really slow so I'm going to stop typing for now.

Wednesday, May 01, 2013

Annoying commercials

Those Jennifer Hudson Weight Watchers commercials are the most annoying commercials in the world.  Seriously, they are awful.  The worst one was last year for New Year's, it was just awful.  There's a new one out and she's wearing yellow pants, it might be equally annoying.

I'm excited to head to the park for my run today.  It's nice out.  I'm not sick anymore so I actually have energy, which is fantastic.  I don't have to go into the boring gym with smelly people, which is nice.  The moon is out, the sky is blue as can be, it's a perfect day.

I bought a foam roller yesterday and have been rolling on it for my hip.  I'm not really sure if that's the best idea.  It feels like I have a knot in my hip flexor, but it could just me that my labral tear is bothering me and rolling on this thing might be doing more harm than good.  Who knows, I love how I try to treat myself.

In one hour I will run.