Monday, December 31, 2012

Happy almost New Year!

Happy almost New Year.  I'm in for the night.  I was out and now I'm in.  Heading back to the big apple in the morning.  I have a ton of crap to bring back, which I'm not looking forward to putting away.  That is NEVER fun.  I hate putting stuff away.  I'll miss being home.  I'll miss the suburbs.  I'll miss lounging around in a big house, doing nothing.  I have been sick for the past week, so sleeping has really taken up most of my time.  Packing up the cats will not be fun.  I know for sure that they will miss roaming around the house.  I'm sure being stuck in a studio apartment is not fun for them.

So I weighed myself a few times over the past two weeks, but whatever, I don't really care.  I'm actually don't even care about seeing Charro on Wednesday.  I'm out of the loop of going so I'm fine not going.

I'll probably be in bed by 10 tonight, which is the way it's been.  I've been getting about 10 hours of sleep and taking naps.  It's been great.

I feel fat but I just weighed myself and it's not too bad.  Back to reality on Wednesday, am I ready for that??

2013...Wow, that's so weird.  Where the heck did time go??  I still think 1996 was yesterday? 2013 is going to be a great year, I can feel it.  Bring it on.

Sunday, December 30, 2012

Cold med hangover

I have absolutely, not one, single desire to go to the gym this morning.  I should be in NYC  but I stayed home.  I should be teaching class, but I'm not.  I worked out for a whole 25 minutes yesterday because I was dying, so I left.  I did shovel part of the driveway last night, and we have about 8-10 inches of snow.  My body is tired and I think I have a Tylenol Cold hang over.  I don't feel like moving at the moment.  I was going to shovel the rest of the driveway, but my dad just came in the house and informed us that he found a guy to plow it.  (Our plow guy called to tell us that his truck broke).  I figured that shoveling the driveway would could as a workout (sort of) so I'd be able to skip the gym today, but I guess that's not going to happen.  I may just skip it anyway, I have no energy.

Why are my cats so darn cute!?

I see Charro in the new office on Wednesday.  I'm not looking forward to the new office, or it's location.  She's going to email details of where to go when she gets there on Wednesday.  This won't be fun.  Maybe the scale got lost in the move.  A girl can dream.

Friday, December 28, 2012

Still under the weather

I'm still not feeling well, but that's okay.  I didn't hear from my doctor about the strep test so I'm guessing that I don't have it, although it says online that it takes 24-48 hours to get the results back.  If I don't hear from her tomorrow, I definitely don't have it.  I don't think I have it anyway.

My stupid phone email isn't working and it's highly annoying.  I might have to pay a visit to Verizon tomorrow.  I just deleted it and now I can't get it back on my phone because it's not accepting my password, which is why I thought deleting it might help.  Clearly, I was wrong.

So at 4 PM today I felt like I was going to throw up.  That went away after an hour or two, but it was weird.

Back to Charro on Wednesday.  Getting weighed will not be good since I think I might have lost weight, being sick and all.  She's not going to be happy at all.

Last night I didn't sleep well because my nose was stuffed and I was breathing through my mouth, which then was so dry and I kept choking.  Ugh.  Hopefully tonight will be better.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Throat swabbing

I just woke up from a long nap and now I'm like a zombie.  I went to the dentist, the gym, and the doctor.  The scale at the doctor's office is in the hall.  The examining room across from the scale had literally four or five people in and it they were all watching me as I got weighed.  Um, where is the privacy?  I was kind of put off by that.  First of all, their door should have been shut so no one can see in, plus, no one should be watching me.  I'm also not quite sure why there were so many people in there.  According to their scale, I'm a half inch shorter than I was last week at the other doctor.  That was not cool.

I got home and my mom kept saying, to my cats, "Your mom is starving you and you're losing weight."  She said it three times and it was weird.  She knows I clearly don't starve my cats.

My throat got all scratchy because the doctor really rubbed that cutip down in my throat.  She did it twice because the first test came up negative for strep, so she wanted to send out the culture.  I couldn't talk after she swabbed me.  She felt bad.  I liked her though.  She's new and only like 30 years old, which is weird, but I'd go back to her.

Wednesday, December 26, 2012

Check!

Sore throat.  Check!  Three different types of rashes in three different places. Check!  Doctors appointment...well, I took my cats to the vet this morning, does that count?  I will call the doctor after they take their lunch break, because my parents keep telling me to.

I don't want to get weighed there because I just had a big lunch and I'll have clothes on.  Stinkers.  I guess it doesn't really matter because I know how much I weigh.

Dentist tomorrow.  Blood work some time, maybe Friday morning.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Christmas Wrap-up

Get it?

Last night was nice.  It snowed and was beautiful.  I felt enormously huge and wanted to, I don't know what I wanted to do.  I had a sore throat which got progressively worse and last night I didn't really sleep at all.  I think I might have strep, but I'm not sure.  I do have white bumps on the back of my tongue, so we'll see what that's about.

Christmas day was nice, although the snow turned into rain and I woke up to green instead of white.  Throat still hurts.  I still feel huge.  I'm hoping I can run tomorrow and not be hurting because of this sickness, or whatever, I have.  I'm sure I infected every body last night. 

I think I had something else to say but I can't remember.  I just need to work out a lot and not really eat for the rest of the week, sounds like a good plan to me.  I totally didn't do my food log yesterday or today either.  I took a vacation.

I need to go to bed.

Monday, December 24, 2012

It's Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve.  I went to the gym.  My mom tried to feed me chicken last night, as she was preparing part of our Christmas meal.  She goes, "Come try this chicken fried, it's fried in butter."  UM...HELLO...What part of that do you think I want to try??  Nice mom.  Then, as we're driving home from NYC she goes, "I dare you to eat just one french fry."  (They stopped at McDonalds).  Um, I'd eat one if I wanted one, but that's about as far as I'd go.

No gym tomorrow, obviously, since it is Christmas.  I need to shower.  I need to work out hard all week and get in shape and maybe get skinny.  Charro would not approve of that.  I think that's it. 

Christmas Eve is my favorite night of the year.  Yay.  I LOVE IT!!  Merry Christmas!!

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Home for the Holidays

We're heading home today.  I don't know how I'll fit my cats in one container, should be interesting.  I really want to weigh myself.  I would right now, but I just drank a boat load of water so I don't want to because it won't be accurate.  I don't want to waste a weigh-in, if that makes any sense.  I told Charro I would only weigh myself once, or once a week, I think I told her both, so if I weigh myself now, it's a wasted scale hop on.  I might need to just forgo that plan though and see how much I weigh.

My cat wants water from the sink, but she can't have it because she'll pee in the crate and that will not be good.

Saturday, December 22, 2012

It's almost Christmas

I'm taking a second to blog, just because.  I was up and out early this morning delivering some treats to friends.  Now I'm cleaning, organizing and then packing.  Maybe I'll get to the gym.  I need to, but I don't want to go.  I'd rather take a nap, but I don't have time for that.  I'm meeting up with a friend and her family later one, who will be in town for a few days.  Tomorrow the cats and I are out of here.  Let's hope they behave at grandma's house.

I haven't weighed myself in while...since Monday.  Well, I weighed myself on Thursday but that doesn't really count because I was going to get weighed at the doctor that day.  We'll see how things go this week.  Maybe I can get Charro to stop weighing me when she gets back...I highly doubt that though.  I'm still doing this damn food log, which totally sucks.  She didn't fire me the past couple of weeks, which is good, because I wasn't where she wants me to be.  I'm not quite sure what will happen when she gets back.  She threatened again, if I lose any weight.  This, however, was before all the tragedy started striking.

Okay, I must get back to cleaning.

Friday, December 21, 2012

A moment of silence

It's been one week since the horrific tragedy in Newtown.  There will be a National moment of silence at 9:30 this morning.  I will be partaking in this, I just don't know where to do it.  Ideally, I would like to be at a church, but I don't really know if I could just walk into a church and sit there.  (I've never been to church in NYC).  I seems inappropriate for me to be at the gym.  I guess I can get my butt to the gym now and be home in time to just sit here and reflect.  I guess I better get my butt in motion.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Probably said before

I went to the doctor today and they wanted to measure me and weigh me, as they do every time I go.  (Although, I think the measuring thing is new as of the past two times).  I took my boots off, more so so I can get a more accurate weight, and my height came in at a whopping 5'1".  Woo hoo.  I stood up nice and tall and am a half inch taller than I thought.  They had me on record as being 5'1", so maybe I really am.  I will tell everyone that I'm 5'1", except for Charro.  If she were to know that I'm an inch taller than she thinks I am, she'll really make me gain weight, so that is not going to happen.  Yay, I'm "tall" (not really), which makes me weigh less. :)

I don't think she's going to be so thrilled with my food log, as of late.  I don't care.  I'm so sick of this damn food log.  It's so annoying.

Switching gears, it's been a tough two days.  I talked to more of clients today who were helping with the funerals of the Newtown victims.  So horrible.  One told me that one of the children they worked on had 11 bullet wounds.  :(  Sooo horrible.  I don't want to give this any thought at all.  From seeing the funeral of Vicki Soto yesterday, to the flag flying high where her funeral procession was going to drive through, to the balloons, and the funeral directors who are helping out...it's just so sad and so close to home. :(  I just continue to pray for these families.

I should eat dinner...

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

From ok to sad

I was doing okay today while I was on the train, minus my fatness freakout situation, but that's not what I'm talking about.  I was coming out of my sadness regarding the shooting last week, which was probably a good thing.  I got off the train and saw the hook and ladder fire trucks set up on the street with a huge American flag attached to them, flying high over the main street.  My eyes filled up instantly and my sister said, "The teacher's funeral is today.  It's probably going on now."  I saw all the green and white balloons set up around the church and cemetery too.  It was so sad.  I had to visit a client right across the street from where the service was going to be held.  He said that they should be going by in about an hour.  You can see the pain in his eyes, as well as everyone elses around the state of CT.  I met with a few of my clients today, actually, they weren't there but their co-workers were there and told me that the other guys were helping out with the funerals.  I can't imagine having to embalm and prepare those children and administrators. 

Okay, I want to try and stop thinking about this.  Busy day tomorrow and busy through Christmas I guess.  I can't believe Christmas is on Tuesday.

train ride

I'm on the train and my fat roll love handles are pouring out over my pants.  I want to lose it.  I can't stand it.  This might be a long, possibly bad two weeks.  As of right now, if Charro actuallu looks at my food log when she gets back, she won't be so thrilled.  Dinner didnt happen last night.  Lunch didnt happen the day before.  Not sure what lunch will consist of today, it might just be a yogurt.  I told her I wouldn't weigh myself more than once while she is gone, but that could be a falsification.  

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Arms

I look at my arms and wonder what they look like to other people.  To me, they sometimes look skinny, what I like to call "anorexic arms."  I have to say, I really like when my arms look like that...or when I think my arms look like that.  Sometimes I think they look huge.  I was on the subway the other day and I was wearing short sleeves.  I was holding onto the bar so I wouldn't fall and I caught my (tricep) arm fat waving as we wobbled on the tracks.  I was horrified.  I thought, all of these people are looking at my waving arm fat.  I flexed my arm to make it tight so it wouldn't wave anymore. 

So, I know how I see my arms, but how do others see them, particularly when I go to the gym.  Do other people think they look nice and toned, too thin, or fat?  I'm hoping it's a mixture of too thin and toned, which would ideally make them skinny and toned, buff and thin.  Is it bad that I kind of want to look stickly skinny, without looking sick?  I think that's kind of normal.
I'm getting ready to head to the gym.  I should have run yesterday, but I didn't so I have to run today.  I'm hoping for 6 miles, we'll see how that goes.  It's kind of boring, but feels good when I'm done.

I started redecorating my tree last night.  One of my friends came over with new ornaments for me, which was so incredibly sweet.  I need to get more hooks so I can so I can hang the rest of my ornaments that fell off and didn't break.  Who knows where those hooks went.

Charro, if she looks at it, is going to hate my food log from yesterday.  My guess is that she won't look at it when she gets back from Italy.  Would you want to look at two weeks of someones food intake?  I don't think so.  Maybe I should just not do it.

I guess I should brush my teeth and get dressed so I can work out.  My cat has stinky breath.  Maybe I should brush his teeth too.  I don't think that would go over well.

Charro told me to stop watching the news.  I know someone whose kid go to Sandy Hook Elementary.  Fortunately, they survived.  Mentally, every one of these people are going to be screwed up.

Monday, December 17, 2012

I had a good sesh with Charro today.  I wished I could have stayed and talked to her longer because I had a lot on my mind and not enough time to get it all out.  I think it will be too late by the time she gets back.  We talked about what happened in Newtown, she teared up.  We talked about my food log and how, according to her, my "eating was not good last week."  Obviously she said that I have to eat and that an event like this can either help or harm an ED.  She said I should use this as a sort of wake up call to see that I shouldn't be worried about my weight because life it too short and unpredictable.  I totally get what she's saying, but I'm not sure it works that way.  When I'm upset, I don't really want to eat.

We also had the flip side of me being afraid of all the food that is around this time of year.  She said that I have to change things if I find myself becoming obsessive with my workouts, or not eating enough.  I think this might be harder than it should be, but I'm not sure.

I started redecorating my tree.  I ran out of hooks so I'm on hold with that for a bit.  I'm tired.  I'm babysitting in an hour, luckily just upstairs so I don't have to wear shoes. 

Broken tree

My Christmas tree fell over this morning.  I heard a huge crash.  All  my ornaments broke.  I am sad, very sad. :(

Sunday, December 16, 2012

Dreary day, dreary feeling

I'm having a Christmas party in a few hours and I'm not feeling very festive.  As I walked to teach my class this morning, tears filled up my eyes.  It's just all so sad.  I'm looking forward to seeing Charro tomorrow, and I have a feeling that our sesh will go by fast.  I wish she wasn't going away at this time.

Last night I had a dream that I was having a sesh with her, but it was outside.  Her husband was there and I kept giving the "is he leaving" look.  He was handsome, looked like an actor but I don't know the actor's name.

I have a lot to talk to Charro about tomorrow.  I wish isn't wasn't our last sesh for a couple of weeks.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Heartbroken

My heart is heavy and I don't know when this sadness will lift.  As I drove around my small CT town today I couldn't help but think of all of those innocent children and faculty killed yesterday.  It breaks my heart and is still so inconceivable to me.  These little children.  The poor families of these children who got their kids on the bus yesterday morning, said their goodbyes like they usually do, and then got the horrific call saying that there was a shooting.  I cannot even begin to imagine how they can go on after something like this. 

This town is very similar to the town I grew up in, and is like many of quaint little towns in CT.  It hits so close to home.  Everyone knows everyone in these towns, so I know that everyone in Newtown has been personally affected by this tragedy, it's almost impossible that that is not the case.  It's just so sad.

I had a dream last night that there was a guy throwing grenades on every floor of my apartment building.  I was chasing him, along with someone else, to try and get him to stop.  Luckily, his grenades didn't explode.

Thursday night I had a dream that my sesh with Charro was interrupted again.  This is a very common dream.  One of her patients came in to give her a hug because she was leaving to go inpatient.  Then a few other girls came back. I was getting really pissed.  At one point Charro said to me, "You're not skinny like those girls." 

I have so much to talk to Charro about on Monday that I don't even know if I'll get to this dream.  I might actually cry for the first time in our sesh.  My eyes filled up while I was working out at the gym this morning, then again when I walked into Walmart.  I walked into Walmart and saw Santa spreading Christmas cheer, and I thought, "How can anyone be happy right now?"  (I know it's Santa's job).  My eyes filled up and I walked through Walmart, a place where I always see people I know, without  making eye contact with anyone.  I didn't want to talk to anyway.  I just wanted to stay in my sad place.

Friday, December 14, 2012

Just Tragic

I don't even know what to say...Horrific.  I'm watching this coverage of the shooting in my state and it makes me so incredibly sad.  I cannot even begin to imagine what these families and parents are going through.  I can't wrap my head around any of this.  It is just so tragic and sad.  My heart goes out to all of these people.  It's horrific tragedy anytime of the year, but to have this happen at Christmas time just makes it even more difficult for these people. 

I'm just sad.  My thoughts and prayers go out to everyone.  We're all grieving in CT right now.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

Monday mind thoughts

Charro's bringing dessert for us for our last sesh on Monday.  She's getting cioccolata calda (Italian hot chocolate) in honor of her trip to Italy.  Our sesh is at noon so if it's not raining, I will leave my place at 10:45 AM to get there, which means that I can't eat lunch before I go.  Even if it does rain and I take the subway, I'll leave around 11:20 AM, which still might be too early for me to eat, unless I'm hungry.  I know that if I drink the cioccolata, I won't want lunch, and I have told Charro that.  I'm okay without eating lunch but she says that I have to commit to eating lunch whether I bring it to her office or I eat before.  I'm not sure that's going to happen.  I'd end up eating around 3, I'm guessing, because that's when I'd get hungry.  So, I'm not really sure how this is going to turn out.  She emailed me and told me to make sure that I eat well all weekend.  I guess that means not just one day. ;)  I have my office party tomorrow night, so I'll be eating more than I would normally...and will probably feel disgusting after.  Sunday, I'm having a party, so I'll probably eat a lot, maybe.  We'll see.  I don't know.  I guess I thought this would be easy but I'm a little anxious about it all for some reason.  Not tomorrow or Sunday, just the next few weeks and eating, working out, weight, etc.  If I lose weight when Charro gets back then I'm screwed, but I kind of want to lose weight.  I want to be bones.

(I just saw the weather, rain in Monday.  No walking for me).  :(

HRM bad buy

I bought something that I shouldn't have, but I did.  I bought a new heart rate monitor last night because mine keeps not working on me.  It's under warrantly, so I'm going to send it back to the company, but I will be without it for a few weeks, which Charro would believe to be a wonderful thing for me, but I can't do it.  I know I should not use it because I'm obsessed with it.  This is very obvious when it stops working, like it did yesterday, because I go nuts.  I got off of the treadmill twice to try and fix it and it didn't work, which was really annoying.  It's bad, I know.  I know...I know...I know.  I have some guilt over that buy, and it's not even over the money this time.

I need to eat a banana and brush my teeth.  I'm still feeling a little like doody today, for some reason.  Blah.  I'm going to get off my ass now and be productive.   I'm having a Christmas party on Sunday and I won't be here tomorrow or Saturday, so I need to get stuff done today, along with doing some work too.

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Feeling yucky today

Hmm, I don't even know where to begin.  My sesh with Charro was fine.  She didn't say anything when she weighed me, so I'm not really sure what that means.  She did make a little noise indicating that she was not pleased with my weight, but no comments were made.  Today was our last day in that office.

So, I'm having a serious fat day situation happening.  I put on pants to go babysit and they were so tight and my fat rolls were hanging over them and I could see them through my sweater.  It was awful, so I changed my clothes and didn't feel any better after I did that.  Ugh.  I still feel crappy. Oh yeah, and she's making me keep the food log while she's away now because she's concerned about my eating.  My eating is no different when I write things down so I don't know why I have to write things down.

Bad things in this world make me sad.  I feel horrible for those peoples' families who were shot in Oregon.  Today I found out that two women I use to work with were killed in a wrong way crash.  There was a third person in the car who was also killed.  The guy who was going the wrong way survived.  It makes me so sad.

I need to do some baking and I don't want to.  I just want to go to bed.

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Twitching Arm

My upper right arm has been pulsating for 6 days.  Enough is enough. 
I LOVE my Christmas tree!
My cat is standing on my keyboard.
I am out of shape and I can't stand it.  I need to start busting my ass at the gym.  Maybe that will be my goal during the week of Christmas.  I'll be at home with nothing else to do so I might as well bust my ass at the gym.  Charro's gonna LOVE that idea when I share it with her.  She said if I lose 1 ounce from WIW to WIW (tomorrow until Jan. 2) then I'm in serious trouble and we will have to take a hiatus.  Have I heard that before? ;)  I think she should give me a break since I won't be seeing her for two weeks.  That's how I see it.

So tomorrow is WIW and then no more weighing for a few weeks.  She asked me how I was doing with weighing myself and how often I do it.  I said, "Every day."  She was like, "What happened?  I'm not setting anymore weight goals with you."  I tried to say, "Cool, then no more WIF," but I got cut off.  I told her I started weighing myself as soon as she said she was going to start weighing me.  I told her that I need to know what I'm going to weigh before I go see her, even though my scale is different than hers.  I told her I was going to steal her scale during the office move. 

I really need to do work and I dread it at the moment.  I hate cold calling people.  Blah!

Monday, December 10, 2012

Soda!?

So Charro has a new challenge for me in 2013 and I don't really see the point of it.  She said we're going to have lunch and drink a soda.  Okay, in all seriously, I do not like soda.  I don't like carbonation, so it's not the calories that are the problem here, it's the bubbles.  I wouldn't like it if she brought in diet soda, club soda, seltzer, etc.  I don't like carbonation.  Why do I have to drink a soda?  Having to drink juice would be just as challenging for me.  I don't drink my calories and juice freaks me out, so why do we need to drink sodas?  Plus, soda is bad for you.

I asked Charro if I could see her Wednesday instead of Friday this week, since I have some work stuff I have to do on Friday.  So, we will be having WIW instead of WIF this week and we will be having WIW instead of WIF on January 2, 2013.

I almost threw up on the way to my sesh.  I was sitting on the subway and I got that metallic, watery thing happening in my mouth.  I was having a hot flash too and really thought I was going to puke.  We pulled up to a stop and I thought, should I get out here in case I throw up or do I just wait it out?  If need be I can go between cars and puke.  Luckily the feeling passed after a few minutes, which I expected it would and I slowly walked to Charro's office.  (This happens to me sometimes when I have cramps).  So I'm almost at Charro's office and I sort of get a glimpse of someone who looks like her over my left shoulder, but I didn't want to turn around and look, so I looked right to see the reflection in the building, and it was her.  So I turned back over my left shoulder and smiled and said hi.  We chatted.  She said, "I saw you checking yourself out in the building."  I said, "Ha.  I was looking to see if that was you walking because I thought it might be, but I didn't want to turn left."

I wish I could take a nap right now but I can't so I shall do some work.

Sunday, December 09, 2012

An apple sounds good

My cat's breath stinks.  Just saying....

So Charro is not going to be so thrilled with today's food situation.  I had lunch around 4 PM.  I had that caffeine and then I wasn't hungry, which I was fine with.  I know she's going to think that I'm totally going to fall of the wagon, or whatever you want to call it, while she's away in Italy.  I won't see her for two weeks, which is fine, but then, when she comes back, she's in a new office.  Hopefully the scale will not be in her office, but I'm guessing that it will be since everything in her current office is marked with a sticker on it so the movers know where it goes.  I told her I was going to remove the sticker. :)

I'm kind of hungry but I don't really know what I want to eat.  I guess I'll have an apple.  I'm dying of heat all of a sudden too.  What's that about?  I'll send Charro my food log after that.

Buzzing

I just had espresso.  I don't drink caffeine or coffee.  I'm going to get A LOT done today.  It was my free bday drink from Starbucks.  Ha.  This is fun!!

It's the month of food

All I've been doing this week is eating.  I'm kind of over it.  Birthday celebrations, Christmas parties.  I'm hoping to play field hockey today but I don't think the weather is going to cooperate.  I'm not going to play in the cold and rain, but I really need to run around for two hours.  I guess there's a lot of stuff I need to do here, like clean and do laundry, so I can be productive.  I need to stop at the grocery store on the way home from class so I can make soup and have food to eat this week. 

If I had WIF today, I would pass.  I don't so I guess that doesn't matter.  I mean, I'd pass by the time I put all of my clothes on, I wouldn't pass if I was weighed naked.

Charro tomorrow.  She leaves next week for Italy.  I want to go to Italy!!

I totally photo bombed a picture at a party last night.  I have to say, it was pretty hysterical.  We were dying laughing.  HA.

Saturday, December 08, 2012

:) Christmas concerts :)

I can't stand Mariah Carey.  That's actually an understatement.  She makes me want to vomit!  The only songs of hers that I can stomach, I just realized, are her Christmas songs.

I'm tired and need a nap today.  My friends are taking me out to lunch for my bday and then I am going to a Christmas party tonight.  My apartment is a complete disaster right now, but I haven't been around to fix it.  I will have to do that today and tomorrow, probably moreso tomorrow.  Oh, I have to buy stuff to make minestrone soup because I want to do that today too.  I don't know what herbs I need.  Thyme??  Rosemary?  I'll have to ask my mom.

Went to an awesome concert last night.  Hung out with one of the singers for a while and the guys, which is always fun.  I'll probably see them all again in February.  I made them treats.  Hopefully they liked them.  It was a blast.  It was a Christmas concert and it was awesome.  Christmas music makes me so happy.  Charro sent me an email while I was on my way to the show and said, "I know you're getting ready to rock and roll..."  How funny.

Charro won't like my non-dinner last night.  Oh well.

Friday, December 07, 2012

My friends are awesome

It's been a busy few days, on Wednesday I celebrated my birthday with my family.  Yesterday I had a work thing all day, which I left early to come back to NY to teach class.  My aerobics girls surprised me with a dinner and cake.  It was very nice.  It was so sweet of them and I really enjoyed and appreciated it.  :)

I'm feeling a little fat, but not really. My weight is the same. 

Charro almost forgot about WIF today, and I wasn't going to remind her.  She remembered towards the end of the sesh.  I got on with my showed on and then she made me get off and take them off.  Doozy.  She said I need to gain weight, which is what she said the past couple of weeks, but she hasn't fired me.  Maybe she's over that because she sees that I'm eating well, I don't really know, but I haven't been fired.  I brought her a piece of my birthday cake.  We were supposed to have that for breakfast but she forgot and ate breakfast.  That's fine, because I didn't want it anyway.  I actually told her that she could eat breakfast and then have the cake, which is why she probably got confused.  I told her that I was going to eat before coming, so I don't know.  She ate a little bit of it and I only have 2 bites and then put it away.  She said, "Did you really eat breakfast?"  I said, "Yes, I'm not lying."  She said that I should have eaten the cake anyway and that eating alone will be my next challenge.  Eh!

I'm tired.  No time for a nap, lots to do. :) 

Wednesday, December 05, 2012

Last day of 34

I'm feeling fat today and I'm not liking it one bit.  I'm going out with my family for my birthday, since I won't be around to celebrate with them.  I wanted my mom to make chicken, but my sis didn't want to come all the way to the house, so we're meeting for pizza. I plan on having soup because I've had Italian food 3 out of the past 4 days, so the last thing I want is pizza.  My new belly ring is hurting me too, so now I keep touching my fat stomach.  I am loving my new jewels though.  I bought it last year and forgot about it and I remembered the other night and put it in.  It's pretty.  Maybe I'll take a pic of it and post it.

I'm supposed to bring breakfast in for Charro on Friday.  Maybe I'll bring her some sticks as a joke.  :)  We'll see.  I'm sick of getting weighed and keeping food logs.  I get a break for a few weeks when she goes away for Christmas.

Blah.  Oh, I found out today that I have to go to Wisconsin in January.  That is the last thing I want to do, ever, ever.  I am going to die!!!

Tuesday, December 04, 2012

Outside it was

I ran outside and it was gorgeous.  The sun broke through and it was warm and I got sweaty.  Yay!  I was dying on my run though.  My heart rate was up to 180 at one point.  Really, am I that out of shape?  That was not cool.  It was probably our last nice day for a while so I had to enjoy it.  The park was empty too.

So the stomach flu is going around my family.  My sister had it on Saturday, my mom started with it last night.  Both my dad and I ate from the same soup spoon as my mom on Sunday.  We'll see.  Hopefully I won't get anything because I'm going to see Martina on Friday night.  I will not miss that for the world.  If I do get it, I will tell Charro that we will not count WIF because it won't be accurate. :)

I need to start baking for Christmas now so I can bring treats to Martina's guys on Friday night.

I'm waiting for the cable guy so I can't go anywhere.

Inside or outside

I can't decide if I should run inside or outside.  My plan was to run in the park today, since it's going to be warm out, but I need to do this before noon and right now it's sort of rainy out.  They (the weather people) say the fog and rain will be gone by 10 AM, but I'm not sure I believe them.  I guess I can wait it out a little and then go to the gym if it's still yucky out.  I'd rather run outside, since I'll be stuck in the gym all winter long.

I didn't walk as much as I thought yesterday.  I walked 6 miles, which is good.  Maybe I'll only run 4 today.  If I'm running outside it will only be about 4-4.5 miles, if I run inside, I'll stop at 4 miles, or so I say now.  I'll probably only want to do 1 mile.  Ha.

Um, do we really have to hear about the "Royal Baby" for 7 more months...and then again after it's born.  Ugh.

Monday, December 03, 2012

Walked all over town

I walked all over the city today and I'm beat.  I saw Charro in there too, in between some walking.  I ate some really spicy Thai food that is now eating away at my stomach.  I'm sure I'll have a case of BHB tomorrow.  You don't want to know what that is.

I have to go babysit in a few minutes and I hope none of these kids have a big diaper explosion because I don't want to deal with that ever!  YUCK!!

I'm never going to be down with this damn food log.  I'm bringing birthday cake in for breakfast on Friday.

Sunday, December 02, 2012

Today will be a fun filled day.  My parents are coming.  I have to teach aerobics and then I will meet up with them and my roommate from college parents.  Then I will go play field hockey.  Then I will shower and probably not want to move,  but I'm going to want to put together the new shelves I'm getting, so we'll see, those things are never as easy as they should be.

I probably won't get to see my parents before I leave because I don't think they'll get here in time.  I was hoping they would.

I should probably get dressed and stuff.

Saturday, December 01, 2012

Oh Christmas Tree

I got my Christmas tree last night and decorated it today.  Yay.  I absolutely love Christmas trees, music, and lights.  They make me so happy.

My parents are coming tomorrow, that makes me happy too.

Wow, I had stuff I was going to say but have drawn a complete blank.  So there's a desk right next to Charro's scale, so yesterday I put my hand on the desk while she was weighing me and the scale showed that I had lost a lot of weight.  She was just about to say something and then I let go.  She goes, "I got really worried there for a minute."  Haha.  Next time I have to do the opposite so I weigh more, except there's not really a ledge for me to push up on so it pushes me down.

I guess I'll go to bed now.