I've done nothing but eat this whole weekend and I want to vomit. It doesn't help that I'll be in a bikini on Tuesday. That's not going to be pretty. I would love to run tomorrow but I don't think I can do that with my foot. I guess I can just do the elliptical since I'll be running pretty much everyday on the beach. I'm not sure if that's going to help or hurt my foot. My hip, that's another story. It is what it is and at least I know what's wrong with it, so I don't really care about that too much. It bothers me and I deal with it.
Seriously, I feel so disgusting right now. My friends and I had a "soup party" today. Only three of us made soups but there was a lot of food and I'm stuffed. The thought of puking doesn't really sound bad to me at all right now, but since I guess I'm not bulimic, I won't do that. It does seem very appealing and would make me feel better...and probably worse. I think the reason why I've never become bulimic is because I know if I threw up just one time I'd be completely screwed because I'd never stop and then I would have a serious ED. That would NOT be good at all and that is not what I want. So, it's a good thing I just "restrict" and am "exercise bulimic."
I should play with my cats. I feel horrible that I'm leaving them for so long. :( It makes me really sad.
I need to clean, shower, pack. My arms are shaky from carrying a pot of soup 2 miles. If I think about the crap I ate I'll go insane so I have to try and not do that and try and be skinny for my trip. Lots to chat about with Charro tomorrow. Only 2 more weeks with her. :)
Seriously, I feel so disgusting right now. My friends and I had a "soup party" today. Only three of us made soups but there was a lot of food and I'm stuffed. The thought of puking doesn't really sound bad to me at all right now, but since I guess I'm not bulimic, I won't do that. It does seem very appealing and would make me feel better...and probably worse. I think the reason why I've never become bulimic is because I know if I threw up just one time I'd be completely screwed because I'd never stop and then I would have a serious ED. That would NOT be good at all and that is not what I want. So, it's a good thing I just "restrict" and am "exercise bulimic."
I should play with my cats. I feel horrible that I'm leaving them for so long. :( It makes me really sad.
I need to clean, shower, pack. My arms are shaky from carrying a pot of soup 2 miles. If I think about the crap I ate I'll go insane so I have to try and not do that and try and be skinny for my trip. Lots to chat about with Charro tomorrow. Only 2 more weeks with her. :)
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