I have two long walks ahead of me today and it's really cold out. I wouldn't mind the walks if it wasn't 21 degrees out there. I mean, I could take the bus or subway, but it's not worth it just to go 25 blocks. It will take less than 30 minutes to walk there and back, so it's not that far.
My hip has been feeling better, minus the fact that it feels like I've poured IcyHot all over the inside of my hip flexor. Right now, it just feels like I need to get up and stretch it so far because it's really uncomfortable. It hasn't been hurting so much when I walk over the past week. Maybe that Advil everyday is working. I just have discomfort.
I can't wait until the end of my sesh tomorrow to see if Charro weighs me. If she doesn't, I'll ask her if we're no longer doing WIF anymore. I'll wait until Monday to ask her though, that weigh she can't weigh me until Tuesday or Friday. I should weigh myself now to see where I stand.
I weighed myself the other day and I wasn't anywhere near where Charro thinks I am. I had gained about 2 pounds for a while there, but now I'm back down. Well, at least I was back down the other day, I could be back up today because we all know, as Charro says, "we fluctuate." Maybe I should just stop thinking so much about it and let it just be what it is. I have to figure it all out, because right now I'm just in the same place I was in a year ago, I think. I don't know. Well, I'm not weighing myself all the time, but I think my weight is pretty much the same and I sort of feel like I'm lying to Charro about it and I'm not really doing this whole process, but kind of faking it. I don't know. I don't think that's something I can talk to her about because then I'll have to make a decision and I don't want to do that. I don't want to decide to go balls to the wall and eat the way I should and gain weight, I want to stay at this weight but be able to not be obsessive and freak out less, which I have accomplished somewhat. I don't think I'm making any sense so I'm done writing. I'm going to stretch my hip, even though I'm not supposed to really stretch it too much.
My hip has been feeling better, minus the fact that it feels like I've poured IcyHot all over the inside of my hip flexor. Right now, it just feels like I need to get up and stretch it so far because it's really uncomfortable. It hasn't been hurting so much when I walk over the past week. Maybe that Advil everyday is working. I just have discomfort.
I can't wait until the end of my sesh tomorrow to see if Charro weighs me. If she doesn't, I'll ask her if we're no longer doing WIF anymore. I'll wait until Monday to ask her though, that weigh she can't weigh me until Tuesday or Friday. I should weigh myself now to see where I stand.
I weighed myself the other day and I wasn't anywhere near where Charro thinks I am. I had gained about 2 pounds for a while there, but now I'm back down. Well, at least I was back down the other day, I could be back up today because we all know, as Charro says, "we fluctuate." Maybe I should just stop thinking so much about it and let it just be what it is. I have to figure it all out, because right now I'm just in the same place I was in a year ago, I think. I don't know. Well, I'm not weighing myself all the time, but I think my weight is pretty much the same and I sort of feel like I'm lying to Charro about it and I'm not really doing this whole process, but kind of faking it. I don't know. I don't think that's something I can talk to her about because then I'll have to make a decision and I don't want to do that. I don't want to decide to go balls to the wall and eat the way I should and gain weight, I want to stay at this weight but be able to not be obsessive and freak out less, which I have accomplished somewhat. I don't think I'm making any sense so I'm done writing. I'm going to stretch my hip, even though I'm not supposed to really stretch it too much.
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I understand the "we fluctuate" but I don't like it anymore than you do. I got on the scale the other day and had a fit. I got on the next day and was down 1.5. I was thrilled. I got on this morning and I'm up .2
Now I'm stressed again... over .2lbs.
I bought a digital scale, so I could see the tenths of a pound, versus the round numbers!
Stressing over, .2 lbs :( I hope you can get that out of your mind. I have a digital scale too.
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