Sunday, January 31, 2010
I need to unpack some stuff. I have too much stuff! I haven't even packed my workout clothes yet. Oh dear.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
So I brought up with Charro how talking about my weight doesn't get us anywhere. How we discuss it and we get nowhere with it and it's pointless to discuss. Yes, part of the problem is that I do not weigh what she said I "need to weigh" in order for her to continue seeing me, but that other problem is that I don't want to weigh that much. So, we just don't discuss it. I don't mention numbers and she doesn't, and hasn't asked since before her maternity leave how much I weigh. So while I was saying was pointless she did throw in there that "we have an agreement." Ugh, "the agreement." I still don't think I really agreed to weighing 102. I guess we'll just go on with not discussing it. As long as she doesn't bring up my weight, I won't. I am pretty sure she knows that I'm not at 102 so it's not like I'm lying to her. I feel like it's the "don't ask, don't tell policy." I just can't see myself gaining 4 or 5 pounds.
I have to go out tonight and it's TOOOOOOO COLD!! I hate it. Clearly, I dress like Nanook of the North. I actually don't even know what/who that is. Ha!
Friday, January 29, 2010
I realized this this morning while I was talking to Charro. I mentioned how maybe I should start writing down what I eat so I have a better perspective of what I'm actually eating. She asked if that was going to make me more obsessive, an obvious question, and I said "I don't know." She told me to try it and see what happens, and obviously stop if it's bad for me. I asked her if that meant I had to measure things out and stuff (and went on to say that that is annoying, too much work, and I don't want to do that), and she said "No, just write things down in your terms. Like 'I had a green bowl of cereal.'" I liked that idea. The thing is, I don't know if I even want to put forth the effort to write down what I'm eating, because that too is annoying and "too much work." So, maybe I won't. I can decide if I want to or not, so no pressure.
I told her that I got down to 96 lbs while she was gone and that I was aware that I needed to eat more at that point. She thought that was good. (the awareness).
I can't write anymore because I'm starving and need to make lunch.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
So, I got an email this morning saying that my gym is staying open. Not sure if it's true or not. I'm working on finding out. (Just got confirmation...It's staying open!!!!)
It's snowing. I have to go out in the snow in a few minutes. Tomorrow I'm going to freeze my buns off going to Charro because it's going to be zero degrees. Get me to Florida NOW!! Five more days and I will be in the sun. Well, there BETTER be sun!!
I'll do my morning workouts on the beach and rollerblade. That's about it. I will spend the rest of my time laying out and doing puzzles at night and eating with my parents and relatives. Oh, I LOVE eating with people who will make comments. That's a blast.
My kitty is laying on my stomach. She loves me. She's looking at me. :) Now she's laying on my right arm and I can't type well. PURRING!!!
Gotta get ready.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I went to my gym for the very last time today. It was so sad. I'm hoping someone will re-open it or something. I don't know. I've grown up at the place.
I went and took my friend's spin class last night. It was fun. I got a "how did you get so thin" from a woman whose daughter I used to coach. I told her that I had just spent 10 days walking around Italy. I thought that was a good answer.
I'm back in NYC now. It's going to get very cold here on Friday, just in time for me to have to venture out to see Charro. It's going to be a cold weekend too. Of course! Tuesday I jet off to Florida. PLEASE let it be sunny the entire time I am there.
Trying to figure out if I want dinner. I just ate some blueberries and pineapple. That may be all I want or I may have a chocolate protein shake. I'm not really hungry so I don't need to eat.
I cut my toenails too short and now they hurt.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
I am sitting on my heater in my kitchen trying to get warm. (I just wrote cold). I came home and my house was an ice box. I turned the heat up to 70, it was at 53 but set at 64. I went to work and when I came back home it was still freezing. The heat wasn't turning on. So, I went into the basement and fixed it, made some tea and and trying to fix my other computer while I sit on the heat and type on this computer.
I'm so tired. Been up since 5:30. My subway line wasn't working, found that out after I paid and waited and could see the stalled train down the tracks. So, I went out, paid again and took and another train to get to a different train station. I lost my train ticket. What a way to start the day, huh?
I'm going to take a spin class at my gym tonight, even though I hate that class. My friend is teaching and the gym is closing for good this weekend. SOOO SAD!! I am contemplating making some sauce so I will have something to eat later. Let's face it though, I like not eating so much better than eating. I felt like I weighed a ton but when I got home and weighed myself, all was good. Yay! It's a never ending cycle that's, well, never going to end.
I'll see Charro on Friday, but that will be it for a few weeks because I'm in Florida next week. I hate missing appointments with her. I think I'll see if we can maybe touch base next Friday via phone. It all depends on what the day looks like and if I can get away from my rents. I just want to have her there in case my parents say something to me. My guess is that they won't say something to me the firt few days I'm there, it would come later on, when I'm about to leave. Gotta love the waiting game. I wish they'd just say something the day I get there and get it over with. I have worrying about it everytime I'm around them.
I really just want to take a nap and be stick thin. Okay, I don't know where that came from other than the fact that it popped into my head. I hope American Idol is only 1 hour tonight. I need to go to bed early.
Now onto other things. I'm going to see a show on Saturday night. My friend takes a few of us every year for a Christmas present. One of the girls who's going was hospitalized for an eating disorder 3 or 4 times. I am afraid that she and her mother are going to notice my weight and think things about me. I'm afraid that when they get in the car to drive home that they're going to talk about my and my weight (in a negative way) and that our other friend (the one who takes us) is going to obviously here that entire conversation. I will definitely eat when we all go out to dinner. Two more people are actually joining us this year so there will be more distractions at the table, but come on, people with EDs can totally pick out others who have them. I'm sure this girl already has her suspicions about me, but I feel like she and her mom might pick up on my face being thinner. I don't want to be talked about.
Monday, January 25, 2010
I want to ask Charro if she thinks I look like I have an eating disorder. I know she's going to want to know why I want her to answer that question. She'll think I want to know because she will think that I want to know if I look skinny, or something like that. I really want to know because I want to know if people who see me, like my doctor for instance, can tell that there might be something wrong. I guess I really want to know if my doctor could tell by looking at my face. That's the big question in my mind. I guess I'm just hung up on the "Anything else going on" question that she asked twice. Clearly, because I keep writing about it.
Done talking now. Maybe more later.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I haven't been sleeping well the past couple of nights. It really sucks to lie awake in bed hoping that you'll fall back to sleep sometime soon. I keep waking up around 4 AM and there I am for a while. Oh well.
My soup came out good. I need to cut my pineapple and eat my blackberries and blueberries before they go bad. I would make more crepes but I don't really feel like it. I'm not in the mood for them and then I'd have them here and I would feel like they'd be going to waste if I didn't eat them. I hate wasting food.
My ears froze off on my way to the gym because I forgot to put my hat on. It's raining out so I'm staying in. Fair enough. I would go hang out at the crepe place but I don't want to get dressed and leave my apartment. I am comfy in my sweats. I feel like I smell even though I just showered.
I hope my parents don't comment on my weight while I'm in Florida. I know they will but I don't think I'll be gaining 3 or 4 pounds in the next 10 days. I might gain it while I'm down there, but that's another story. I won't if I can avoid it, though it would make Charro happy.
It's so dark and gloomy out. Good day to take a nap or cook or bake. I don't feel like doing any of those things. I could/should find all of my tax stuff and get it together. Maybe I will do that later.
I really want to know if my doctor was trying to get me to say something to her when she kept asking me if there was "anything else going on." I'm very curious about that. I'm sure I'm just being oversensitive and paranoid that she was asking me about my weight. I guess when I get my blood work done and my cholesterol is high still, she might question that. Last time she said "Your cholesterol went up and is high, but you've lost weight." Ok.
I bet Kruger misses me. HAHAHAH!!! I just made myself crack up. I'm sure she hated me. She probably couldn't figure me out. She told Charro that I was "superficial" in my conversations, not like a superficial person. Come on, was I really supposed delve deep into my life when I was only going to see her five times? I think not. I wouldn't have felt comfortable to delve into my life with her at all. She was different. Oh well. I am waiting til the day where I run into her. I always go to the farmer's market right by her office, and it's a day she's there too. I wonder if she would recognize me.
I am boring myself here. I'm so bored that I'm writing about nothing and even that is boring to me. Maybe I should go be eating disordered or something fun like that. Just kidding. Maybe I'll cut my pineapple. I hope it's a good one.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I've had pretty much nothing to do all weekend, which is kind of nice but boring at the same time. Yesterday morning I went to see Charro, as we all know, then did a few errands. My friend and I walked to this candy store (they have old fashion candy and stuff) because we wanted to check it out. It was really cool. It's called Economy Candy. I don't know if they have a website, but I'm sure they do. :)
I was going to go to the gym after Charro but since we walked to the store, I did not go. The walk was an 8 mile walk (160 blocks). I probably walked a total of 10 miles yesterday, which was nice. It was like when I was in Italy and just walked all day, except these walks were at a faster pace.
I went to bed a little after 9 last night. I was beat. This morning I woke up feeling yucky, but that went away after an hour or two. I knew it would. Then I went to the gym and came home, chilled and watched some ED Intervention, then walked to Central Park and people watched. Then I was frozen, came home and made minestrone soup and guacamole. I have yet to partake, but maybe later I will have some soup. Then I watched another ED Intervention.
I love watching ED movies/shows and reading books about them, but for some reason, and this is going to sound really harsh, I can't stand dealing with people with eating disorders. They drive me insane. I totally wouldn't be friends with myself if I wasn't me. Although, I make a very concerted effort to NOT discuss anything food/weight related when I'm with people. I definitely don't talk about it with my friends who don't know I have an issue, but I also don't talk about it with my friends that do know and have their own eating disorders. I figure, if they annoy the hell out of me than I would probably annoy them by talking about it, so I don't.
Sad news, I found out yesterday that my gym at home is closing. I still go to this gym when I am home, about once a week. I've been a member there since I was 17 years old, and taught there for 10 years as well. So sad. I look forward to going there when I'm home because I get to catch up with people I don't get to see. I won't get to see my regular peeps now. It's sad. I'm bumming, man.
I don't know what I'll do tonight. Maybe I'll watch an ED movie or something. I'll probably go to bed early again since I was awake for almost 2 hours in the middle of the night. I fell back to sleep around 5:30 AM and then woke up at 7 AM. Tomorrow I teach aerobics and then I don't know what else the day will bring...besides heavy rain in the evening.
I realized yesterday, after my sesh with Charro, that I miss going three times a week. I realized that it definitely helps me be able to talk easier/better when I have the continuity. Just something to note for myself.
Friday, January 22, 2010
I had a good sesh with Charro. I kind of thought that we'd have stuff to talk about today, after having my episode of thinking we wouldn't have anything to talk about. I guess a lot happened in two days that I needed to talk about with her. So, it was productive. It's kind of nice to have 100 minutes to talk to her. Sometimes it feels like a long time and then it all of a sudden goes by. I think I'm getting used to her being back now and am feeling more comfortable. I realized that I do miss going three times. I realized this when I got back today because I kept thinking about how I have to wait another week to continue talking about what we were talking about.
So, I have one more week with her and then I jet off to Florida for some fun in the sun!! I have just three words for you all (and I hope that the weather cooperates so I can have all three): SUN! BEACH! TAN!! That's all I want.
Charro hasn't been asking me about my weight, which is good. I'm pretty sure she knows that I'm under her standards so we don't really need to discuss it. I think she's accepted that and realized that we have to stop talking about the numbers and move on. I might be making that up, but she hasn't asked about numbers so I get that feeling from her. I don't really know what I'm talking about. Ha!
Maybe I'll think of more things to say later and maybe the will actually make sense.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
I'm having the I feel like I should just quit going to Charro thought in my head lately. It was pretty strong last night. I just kept thinking about how I have nothing that I want to talk about and don't have anything to talk about. I'm sure my feelings will change come Friday when I go. I just feel like I'm wasting both hers and my time here. We're not getting anywhere and I don't talk about anything so what's the point?
Today I don't have that I should quit feeling as strongly. Maybe I'm thinking of some things to talk about, I don't know. She must be so sick of me anyway.
I had a good workout today, which is good. I went for a 4 mile walk with my friend after I went to the gym. I think my ears fell off because it was so windy out and I wasn't wearing a hat. I was sweating but had cold ears.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
The nurse practitioner lady weighed me before I went it. I wonder if they think "Should a 32 year old woman really weigh this?" I don't know, I guess they don't ponder over that.
I am doing laundry and then heading back to my sister's before I head back to NYC. I need a nap.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
My oldest nephew is coming to spend the night with me. I love having him here. I wish we had more time together, but I will be with them both again tomorrow night, though they will be asleep by the time I get to their house. I will be getting them both off to school Tuesday morning because my sis broke her hand and has to have surgery.
I have to go to the dentist and the doctor tomorrow night. The only thing I hate about going to the doctor at 8 PM is that I will weigh more than I would have if I went at 8 AM. I still weigh less than I did last time I went. It's kind of funny, they must not really care about weight because I have lost weight the past 4 times I've gone there. It's not a drastic amount, just a pound or two here or there, but if they were to look back at my charts they might question it. I guess not that.
I think I have to get my nose swabbed to see if my staph is originating from there. We shall see. I'd like to get rid of it. I will have to ask my doc for a script for bloodwork too, because I need to have that done and have a physical. I'll wait until after Florida to do that.
I asked Charro if we were going to do phone sesh's and she said yes, but her son is not predictable yet so we can't do them yet. Well, I'm thinking she'll probably be back to work full time next month so I don't know why we'd even bother doing them anytime soon. My guess is that she comes back in the beginning of February because that will be 12 weeks of leave, but what do I know. I'll ask her on Friday.
I'm sidetracked now because I'm watching "Knocked Up." Bye
Saturday, January 16, 2010
I'm sitting here thinking if I really have to eat dinner. I guess today was my first day where I didn't really have anything to do, not that I know if that has anything to do with anything, but maybe it does. Who knows. With 10 days of company, I clearly had to eat, which was fine. I guess I'm not really hungry and don't want anything right now. That could also change. I have options, just don't want any of them. That will change in a little bit, I'm sure.
I think I'm going to tell Charro that I don't want to talk about my weight anymore. It's pointless. We accomplish nothing by talking about it and I just get mad, so what's the point. I guess we'll have to find other things to talk about. I don't know what those will be. It just makes no sense to sit there and argue about my weight and that I "don't weigh enough." I'm well aware that I'm 5 pounds under what she says my "lowest acceptable weight" is, but I'm really not willing to do anything about that right now. Yes, I don't want to go down to Florida and have my parents ask me if I've lost weight, and all of those questions that follow that. I definitely don't want that and I wish I didn't have to worry about getting confronted by them, but that's what I have to be ready for. It's either deal with that or gain weight, but we've already established that I am not willing to gain weight and can't really start shoving tons of food down my throat. I've been branching out with my food choices and lost weight, so I don't know what the deal is.
I think I might try to make crepes tonight. That should be a disaster. Ha! I tried once before and they came out horrible, but now I'm obsessed with them so I want to try and make them. I know as soon as I start the process I'll get a call to babysit. I'm on standby.
Friday, January 15, 2010
Saw Charro this morning. We talked about how I hate to talk. I asked her why she sent me to Kruger and if she sent everyone to her, or just me. She said she didn't send everyone to her but I wasn't the only one. She said that Kruger is more analytical and she felt that her way of doing things might help me because she wouldn't veer off onto different tangents. Charro said that sometimes she thinks that she is wasting my time but chatting too much. Let's be honest though, that's what I'm comfortable with. I did tell her that I feel comfortable enough to tell her things and that I don't feel stupid talking about things, but I just don't like to talk about things. She put a new rule into effect...she said I am not allowed to say "I don't like" without a reason behind it. It was funny because she could tell that my head was going in the "What can she ask me about what I don't like? She's going to ask me about dried fruit." It was funny because I smiled and started to say something and she said "I knew you were thinking, "She's going to ask me why I don't like dried fruit." We're totally on the same page.
Why does my cat drink out of the pot of water that I put onto my heater and not out of the fresh bowl of water that is on the floor for them?? WHY!?? Also, the toilet...really??
I think I need a nap.
Oh, we talked more about Kruger and Charro said, "You thought she was weird, I get that." I said, "No, I didn't think she was weird. I thought she was stupid." Ha! Was that too harsh? I spoke the truth. Then I said, "Well, I'd probably go see her again if I had to. Well, maybe I wouldn't...I'd have to think about it."
K, that's all for this boring ass post.
Thursday, January 14, 2010
We went to lunch at the crepe place. We saw the old lady again. I am going to go there a few times a week and hang out because they have free wifi. It's just a cool place and I love it. I wish it was a little closer, but it gives me an excuse to walk a little bit and get out of my place. The people there are cool too.
Back to Charro tomorrow. I don't have anything to talk about, really. I can fill her in on my past week of being severely annoyed with T., but that's about it. I have nothing deep to talk about. Oh, I guess I'll bring up the "letters" but I will only bring them up because she wants me to bring things up and initiate conversations. The conversation will pretty much be, "I'm bringing up the letters I wrote to you because you want me to bring things up, but I don't want to talk about them so we can move on now." The end. I'm sure she'll love that, but I don't want to talk about them so I'm not going to. If she wants to know what was going on in my head, she can read them.
K, I want to vacuum but I don't want to disturb the sleeping cats.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
I'm so tired. I've been staying up way too late with T. She leaves tomorrow and I'm looking forward to that. I went to the gym and told her we have to leave here at 11 to go do what we need to do. One would think that she would have gotten in the shower while I was there, but she is still in the shower now and it's 10:10. She is ALWAYS late so I know we won't leave here on time and that will drive me insane. Tomorrow she leaves!! I keep telling myself that. I just want to sleep and be by myself for a bit.
I am sick of spending money on food too, mainly because I don't have money to spend. I'd rather spend it on flights to Florida! We're going to try and see a show today for 25 bucks, we'll see if that happens. I don't really want to spend all day in Times Square. We're going to try for a matinee and if we don't get that, we're going to try for an 8 PM show. PLEASE let us get a matinee so I can get the hell out of there.
I guess I should get my clothes ready to go. She's out of the shower.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
I don't feel like going to the gym.
Monday, January 11, 2010
I need a nap. I with it was Thursday. I can't wait to clean my place and see Charro on Friday.
I will be amongst the palms in 22 days.
I will get some time to myself today, which will be nice. My friend is meeting someone for lunch. I guess I could go because I know the person too, not as well though, but I'd rather just have some "me" time. I can't wait to have my place back to myself and have a clean space. I'm having fun with her and all, but I want my CLEAN space back.
I need to take a shower because I'm all sweaty from running, but she is in the shower so I will sit here in my sweaty filth. :) I keep forgetting that she needs to eat. (My eye is twitching and it's annoying). I told her I'd cook for her but she is THE PICKIEST person in the world. We went out to dinner the other night and it was such a disaster. I might have written about it, but I can't remember. I was so annoyed with her. I'm like "JUST ORDER IT!" So annoying.
She just got out of the shower. Oooh, Rachael Ray is making a good meal. I might have to make that. Yum.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
I am so sick of this cold weather. It's 15 degrees out, but it feels like 7 with the windchill. YUCK. It better be warm in Florida when I go down there. I just can't wait to run on the beach and rollerblade and get tan. Charro can tell me that I've "turned a corner" when I get back too. :) Ha! I haven't heard that in a long time.
I like being away. I feel a bit more free when I'm away. Of course this trip will be different than my Italy trip because I will be with my parents, I won't be walking around for 12 hours a day, and I'll have to keep myself busy and try not to feel lazy laying in the sun all day long. I will be in the sun all day because that's my purpose for going. SUN and WARMTH!! Ahhh.
My friend T. is here for 5 more days. She is so high maintenance and it's driving me insane. Her trying to order dinner last night was a disaster. She doesn't have an ED, but is SOOOO picky, way more than I. It's so annoying. Her trying to decide what to buy, like a shirt or something, is also annoying. Deep breaths.
I have to walk to the gym in an hour and freeze my tuckus off. Awesome!
Saturday, January 09, 2010
I had a double with Charro. I have to admit, it felt like a long time to be in there, but it was good. It allowed us to kind of cover everything that's happened over the past 2 months. I told her about Kruger and said "She was nice, she just sucked." Then I gave her all of the examples about her stupid questions and how she analyzed everything. She did not ask me my weight, thank God. I did not discuss the "letters" I had written while she was away. I wasn't going to talk about them, but we didn't have time anyway. She didn't say anything about having phone sesh's on Tuesdays, like we had talked about before she left. That's okay, I guess.
I am so tired and have to go to the gym. Was out pretty much from 8 AM until 1 AM, minus the hour I came home to change. I've been staying up way too late with my friend and I hate that. I like sleeping and need sleep. The gym is going to be so crowded, which I also hate, so I should get my butt here ASAP. Oh, I guess I should eat breakfast. I forgot about that.
I head to Florida next month. Booked a flight last night. Crazy. I need to get out of this weather.
Friday, January 08, 2010
Home for 2 seconds. Just booked a flight to Florida, kind of freaking out about it because I shouldn't be spending money or leaving my cats. Poor cats. Gonna be gone 9 days. Not good for them.
No time to write about Charro. Will do that tomorrow because I'm heading back out the door.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
I think I've been away from blogger the past few days. I had to go home to go to work and to go to a wake and funeral. The girl that I coached in high school died of cancer. She lived 3 months longer than they expected her to live. She was first diagnosed almost a year ago. SOOO SAD!
Went to see Rock of Ages the other night. It was awesome...especially if you grew up in the 80's.
I see Charro tomorrow. I have mixed feelings about going. I want to go and see her because I haven't seen her for a few months, but I don't want to go because I don't want to have to talk. I emailed her and asked her if she wanted me to bring her the "letters" that I wrote to her while she was gone. (She wanted me to do that). I said, "Don't bother asking me to read them to you because that's not going to happen. Either you can take them and read them yourself or we will just forget they exist." Well, she wrote back and said that she thinks I should either read them before I go, or bring them with me so I can refer to them, not read them, so we can talk about what was in there. She said that she thinks it's important for us to do that rather than her reading them. Well, I don't want to talk about what's in them so I am not going to bring them tomorrow and I'm not going to discuss them with her either. It's not really important anyway. It's not like I devulge anything deep or crazy in there. I feel like it's in the past (those thoughts that I wrote down. Not that I'm not still thinking some of them), and I don't feel like talking about them. So, that's how it's going to be. She won't find out what was in my head unless she reads them for herself and that's not going to happen so I guess she won't find out what's in my head.
I need to go teach aerobics. I need to go to bed early tonight. I've been staying up late with T. and then I've been waking up at 5:30 every morning to pee and I can't fall back to sleep. It sucks and I'm tired. When I go to bed early I sleep much better.
So, that's that. I need to put my workout clothes on for the second time today. I need to weigh myself, for the third time today because this is on a different scale. Then I need to eat some dinner. That's all. Ciao.
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Monday, January 04, 2010
My little one is curled up on my stomach/chest right now as I try to type. She's always sitting on me. She loves me.
My friend T. flies in tonight. She'll be here for the next 10 days. (Now she's sitting up, facing the screen so I can't see what I am typing. Settling back down again with her head resting on my left hand.) It will be fun. I go and stay with her all the time, but we're always working 18 hour days when I'm down there, so this will be all play and no work. Well, I'll have to do some work for my real job but that isn't going to get in the way too much.
I do have to go home on Wednesday for work, and now I have to go to a wake and a funeral too. The girl I coached who was given 2-4 weeks to live back in September, died yesterday. The weird thing is that her mother was in my dream last night and I found out this morning that she died. Weird!! I'm glad she made it through Christmas. One last Christmas together for their family. So sad to think about.
So T. will be here. I'll continue on with my activities. I see Charro at 9 AM on Friday. I still can't believe she's back. I think I might be a little nervous to see her. I'll definitely be excited. I wonder if she will be back to her skinny self or have some remnants of just having had a baby. My guess is that she''ll be skinny. I wonder if she'll be excited to see me?
I'm still over what I want to weigh. I'm hoping by Friday I'll be back to where I want to be. Actually, I'm hoping by tomorrow I'll be there. Is that really too much to ask? Once I get back to that weight, I won't have to weigh myself as often.
K, I'm done writing because I'm boring myself.
Saturday, January 02, 2010
I need to go back to Italia and walk for 10 hours a day and enjoy myself.
I don't know what's going to happy in the next 7 days. Hopefully I will get back to the weight I want to be at, but who knows. I'm hoping I can.
I have a friend coming to town on Monday and is staying with me for 10 days. That will be good because I'm sure we'll do a ton of walking, which is good for a couple of reasons. It gets me out and walking more (exercising), plus it gets me out of my apartment and off my ass. I think we'll go to my house on Wednesday so I can go see some clients and stuff for work. She'll get to meet my parents too. I've known her for 8 years. We met while working in Nashville and I always stay with her when I go down there to work, so it will be nice to have her up here. It seems weird that she's never seen my life up here, since we've known each other for so long. It will be fun. Cramped in my studio, but fun. My big concern is her sloppiness. Her apartment is beyond a disaster. It should be condemned. So, I'm hoping she respects my space and keeps it clean.
Gym time. Not that I think my workout will make a difference in my weight at all.
Friday, January 01, 2010
I'm definitely tired because I only had 6 hours of sleep, which is so not enough. I'll sleep later. I don't think the gym will be too crowded. I'll go around 9:30 and do some damage control. I actually didn't eat that much yesterday, but my weight shot up. It's back down (not all the way), this morning. So, I still have to get back where I was. I guess that's a bit of a problem because then I have Charro issues. I don't want to have to deal with Charro and my weight. It's not fun.
Speaking of Charro, I will be seeing her in exactly one week. I think I might be a little nervous and excited about seeing her. Nervous because I don't want weight to be a topic of conversation. I guess it's kind of unavoidable, but I think I can make it through the first day without it coming up. I have too many other things I want to tell her about to even get into weight. Too many positive things. :)
With that said, I guess I should start making my way towards getting ready for the gym. All dressed. Must eat a little something, brush teeth, wash face, put contacts in (that won't be fun) and depart. Then...RUN. RUN! RUN! RUN!
I can't believe it's January. Two more awful months to get through (weatherwise) before things start looking up. I need to plan a Florida trip.
I think everyone enjoyed my little dinner party last night. At least I hope they did. They seemed to like the food.
My cats are sleeping so cute on my bed. They don't care how much they weigh. I am going to bed.