Wednesday, July 15, 2009

More than a feeling

I went to dinner with "44" after field hockey and now I feel/am so fat and gross. These are the time I really wish I would just stick my head in the toilet, though I know that doesn't really help you lose weight. Once in a while it would be ok for me though. Blah! I hate my fatness. I'm going to weigh so much in the morning. I could cry. I might have to weigh myself know to find out the damage.
(I posted 3 times again today?? [Geez])

6 comments:

Jackie said...

I hope you can continue to resist the urge to throw up. It doesn't help you lose weight - it only gets rid of the minerals/electrolytes that your body needs the most. Coming from personal experience, it is a horrible road to go down. So I am proud of you for passing by the road :) xoxo

Jena said...

You are already doing the right things by eating healthily and exercising. Your body can't take the damaging kinds of things you are talking about. You're really soaring under the health-scope by taking your measures to the extreme now (extra exercise especially) and hun, you just can't not nourish your body. You won't have the ability to go on. You are killing yourself. It's not worth it. You are beautiful the way you are, anyway.

now.is.now said...

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hugs

PTC said...

Don't worry Jax, I will never go down that road! thanks Jax!! xo

Oh Jena, it's always so weird to see your serious side. I'm not used to that, I do like it though. Thanks babe!

Zena said...

ekkkkkk..I know you already agreed to not "throw" but I have to echo the clan, I know from experiance...dont go down that road all it will do is kill you!! can I ask why you still go to dinner with 44 if you dont really like him, are you afraid of hurting his feelings or what?? Cause really the dinners just seems to cause you stress, although it is a good challange for you!!

Love, Z

PTC said...

I go to dinner with him because I like him. I enjoy his friendship, I am just not interested in him in any other way.