Thursday, September 28, 2006

Bedtime

I'm sitting in my bed writing this post. I brushed my teeth, washed my face, flossed, mouthwashed (not a real word, I know) and weighed myself. Ugh, it was not a pretty night on the scale. I'm an NOT happy with what I weigh right now. I did just drink a lot so I'm hoping that's the problem. It really doesn't matter though. I still look in the mirror and see how fat, and now white (tan is gone) I am. I just want to puke.

I need to lose weight now!!

I'm going to NYC this weekend which means that I won't be able to weigh myself. However, I tend to lose weight when I go to New York so let's hope that's the case this weekend. Not that you really "lose weight" in a day, but whatever. If the numbers are down, I'm happy!

I'll write more about NYC tomorrow. Right now I'm going to bed.

FYI, my parents are annoying.

9 comments:

CwazyLawa said...

Hey girl, thanks for the comment. Just wanted to let you know that it's a good thing when there's not a scale around! It tends to take over life when it is. Maybe this'll be a 'true' vacation, then... right? Without the scale chained to your foot! I'm jealous that you're going to NY as I've never been - but I've ALWAYS wanted to! Have a good time and post pictures if you get any! I'll live vicariously through you while I'm starring at the clock at work!

-Lara

Anonymous said...

consider this a virtual hug. not so much re: this post, but re: the past few ones you've written. can you accept the fact that others percieve you as [much] thinner than you percieve yourself? i have no idea how thin you are - i've only ever seen the picture that you courageously posted a while ago and then criticized for misrepresenting your stomach, but from what you write, it's clear that there's consistent misperception on someone's part, whether that misperception is yours or everyone else's. i wish i could make everything better!
p.s. wow, i just realized - *I* live in nyc. i won't know if i see you this weekend, because i don't know what you look like, but how weird would that be?!
- nyc

Sarah Liddle said...

Hi Palm tree chick

Just a thought that may help you, which has helped me establish a healthier outlook on my body... Try to shift your thoughts from what you dont want to your thoughts that you do want.

EG: I am so heavy/big and white

to..

EG: I am feeling healthy and I am beautiful regardless of the numbers I see in the outer world.


Have a good time in NY!

Kindly,
Sarah

PalmTreeChick said...

Hey Lara,

Thanks for stopping by again. NYC is awesome. You and your man should take a little trip out there. Although, it is expensive if you have to stay in a hotel and stuff.

I'm going pole dancing with some friends tomorrow. :)

If I have pics I can post, I'll post them for ya :)

xoxo
ptc

PalmTreeChick said...

Thank you so much, anon! I'll accept your hug and send one back to you as well for being so caring and sweet.

That would be funny if we saw each other, if we knew what each other looked like. Just look for the short girl. ;) I'll be doing some pole dancing (aerobics class) and some karaoke! :) I'll post about that later. :)

Thanks for stopping by, anon. Wish i knew who you are.

xoxo

PalmTreeChick said...

I try to do that, Sarah but it's so hard sometimes. Thanks for reminding me to do it though! It won't help with my fading tan though :(

Thanks Sarah!! :)

xoxo

Feisty Frida said...

Pole dancing?? You little vixen!

;)

FF

PS: We have lots of pole dancing classes here, maybe I should give it a try!

PalmTreeChick said...

I'll let ya know how it is, FF. I hear it's a great workout.

Feisty Frida said...

I've also heard that.