Not so sunny last day

I've got 8 more hours left in the warm sunshine. Well, it's supposed to be mostly cloudy today. I will seriously flip out if I do not get sun!! I have a tanning problem and I NEED to get tan on my last day. Grr. Tomorrow, when I was supposed to leave, it's going to be SUNNY! Yep, sunny all day and I would have gotten some great color. It's going to be cooler, but SUNNY! Grr!

This morning my parents and I are going to breakfast and then heading to the beach for our morning workouts. :) They walk on the sidewalk, I run on the beach. My feet are nice and soft from the sand. I love it. I didn't go in the ocean at all, which makes me really sad. I should jump in today!

The only good thing about going home today is that I can weigh myself one day sooner. Well, the other good thing is that I get to see my babies!! They miss me! Back to the scale, if it is higher than 100 I might go a little crazy. I know I'll wake up at a good number if I'm at 100. I guess I should account for strange travel water/dehydration stuff so maybe I won't be too mad if it's higher than I want it to be. Okay, I'm done thinking about it.

My rents are still sleeping. Lazy bums!! I'm going to have an egg white omelette at breakfast and I don't want it at all. I would rather have something like french toast, but that's not going to happen. I am in the mood for something sweet, not salty. Oh well, too bad I have to go for the healthy option instead of what I really want.

Polly

It was two years ago today that Polly died. I think about her quite often. I miss her craziness, her laugh, and the way she would say "Palmtreechick! Palmtreechick! Palmtreechick!" She always had to say it three times. Or she'd just call me PTC. She was hysterical. I watch the videos she sent me and smile. Everytime I drive my car, I think of her as the palmtree keychain she gave me hangs with my keys. The green part that read "friends" is gone, but the rest is still with me. I sometimes go back and read the crazy letters that she sent to Jen and me. She superimposed pictures of us in there doing crazy things. Man, I miss her. I think about what our (Jen, P-Dawn, me) trip to Florida would have been like, if we ever actually got to go. We didn't get much past the picking a date stage. Those two years seem like forever, yet have gone by so fast.

Thinking about you, P-Dawg. Hey, I still want my bitchstick!! :)

Missing out

I'm leaving Florida a day early. We're supposed to get a big storm on Wednesday, the day I'm supposed to fly home, so I am leaving tomorrow afternoon instead. I'm going to miss out on a day in the sun, which is sad. I thought about leaving Thursday instead, but I'm afraid that I wouldn't get back in time to teach class that night. I'm afraid of the residual effects from the storm. I'm sad!

I'm fat too. It's great. I actually felt like puking last night and I didn't even eat that much. Oh well, it happens.

I'm heading to the beach now to look for shells and then I'll head to another beach to lay out. I need to get some serious sun in the next 2 days. I hate going home and flaking and peeling.

Oh, so last night this lady I just met said, "You're so tiny. Is your sister the same way?" My mom said, "Well she's (my sister) smaller boned but she's taller. They're built differently." The lady says, "I can't believe she could be smaller than you." Nice, right. Then later on, possibly the same lady, I can't remember, says "Are you a health nut?" My mom chimes in with "yes, she teaches aerobics too." Can we just NOT talk about me please?!

My dad needs to finish his breakfast so I can get to the beach!

5 day flunder

Beach Cats

I've officially hit the day 5 of vacation and I don't want to eat anymore. I am here for another 3 days and when I get back home I won't have to eat, and that's a good thing. I know I won't have to eat and I think that will help me (maybe) get through the next few days. I know I've gained weight and I can't wait to get it off. With that said, it has been nice having a break from my scale and not being such a slave to it. I don't know how I can prevent myself from going back there though.

I just want to shed the three pounds that I feel like I've gained. I want to weigh myself too. I am drinking lots of tea and water because I feel like that helps. I never really the whole fluid restriction thing. Makes no sense to me. That just makes you more hungry. Whatevs.

I am going to a superbowl party tonight. I won't stay long. I hate football and it's going to be all old people.

I need to run 47 miles.

Stupid weather people and fatness

Definitely feel like I've gained a bunch of weight at this point in time. I want to weigh myself. I want to burn a lot of calories and not have to eat. I want to feel skinny again. I don't right now.

I saw my uncles girlfriend this morning. We all meet at the beach and they walk and I run. She said, "Did you shrink?" I think she meant my height. Afterwards I was getting ready to rollerblade and I took my shirt off to wear my bikini top, and she said to my parents and uncle, "Look how skinny she is." It wasn't a concerned comment, just a comment. I'm not feeling so skinny, I'll tell ya that much.

I am so tired. Going to bed now.

Oh, and these weather people SUCK!!! They said it was going to be SUNNY all day and it was cloudy most of the day. Those F'ers!! I was going to go to the beach but just went to the pool instead. It will be too cold to go to the beach tomorrow. I need to go before I leave!!! There better be SUN the rest of the week. It's looking like rain my last day here. That is NOT good!

The visual up two

Charro is so happy that I haven't weighed myself since I've been here. I almost weighed myself at Publix the night I arrived but there was a man standing next to the scale so I didn't get on it. I promised her that I wouldn't weigh myself while I was here. She said, "You don't need to promise me." I said, "Yes I do because if I promise myself I can easily break that promise." I actually have been okay having not weighed myself. I know I've gained two pounds though. I can see it in my stomach. It was nice and flat when I got here and now it's not. I need it to be concave again.

I'm still waiting for my parents to say something to me, besides my mom's mini comments that are stupid. Maybe they won't say anything because I'm eating a lot. Hopefully that will be the case.

I can see that it might be sunny at the beach. Hopefully it will be by the time we get there at 8:30. The sky is more clear towards the water right now. I need some sun baby. Oh, funny thing, I emailed Charro on Thursday to confirm our phone sesh for yesterday and I said, "I've got my blinker on...so far I have a nice red stripe going down my forehead." She emailed me back and said, "Glad you use blinkers before turning." Ha!! I thought that was pretty funny.

I must get ready for my beach run. I don't feel like getting dressed and brushing my teeth and moving. I keep waking up so early here. The trains are really loud.

Grey toe nails

My mom and I were sitting outside at a little mall type area last night waiting for my dad. My feet were cold. My toes were a shade of blue. My mom was looking at my feet and said, "Your toe nails are grey." I was hoping she didn't want to "explore" that. She didn't. I need to paint my nails tomorrow. They were only that color because they were cold.

Rollerbladed today and I love my new blades. It was a yucky day so I did not turn any corners. Supposed to be sunny tomorrow. I will lay out all day. :)

Had my phone sesh with Charro. It was fine. Now I'm going to bed.

New rollerblades

The red line of sunburn that is going down the center of my forehead is slowly fading into the rest of my face.

This morning I did an interval run on the beach. It was nice. I get my heart rate way up, which is awesome. It makes me feel better because I'm not working out for as long, but I'm working out harder than usual, which is all that matters.

I laid out all day. :) That makes me happy. My new rollerblades arrived and I can not wait to use them tomorrow. YAY! I will use them after my beach run and then rollerblade to somewhere where I can have my phone sesh with Charro. I feel like I got some sort of comment from my parents today, but I guess I didn't.

I was at the pool today and this lady, mind you they are all over 65, came over to talk to my mom. I was introduced to her. She kept saying that she wanted to adopt me and that I am so beautiful. Well, I hopped into the pool and I said, "Ooh, I can touch (the bottom)." She goes, "You're so small. You're like a little elf." Ha, which would be why I can't find a freaking pair of flats (shoes) anywhere! They don't make my size!! I did, however, score a pair of Reefs today for 25 bucks. They're the ones with the bottle openers on the bottom and they cost $46, but I found them in my size at TJs and I totally bought them. Well, actually my mom bought them for me. She loves me. I was just saying yesterday that I didn't think it was worth spending $45 dollars on them (never mind $46:), when my mom said that I needed new ones. I did say though that I did get 5 years out of them and that they are SO comfy so it might be worth the money. Well, I didn't have to spend the extra 20 so it was perfect.

Okay, I'm making sauce so I can make dinner for tomorrow. I am going to start a puzzle too.

Sharks!

There was a deadly shark attack right near me yesterday. Well, I wasn't at the beach, but it was not too far from where we are.

My wrists

Today:
Ran/walked/sprinted on the beach.
Put on my rollerblades to rollerblade home from the beach only to find out that they had broken since I last wore them.
Bought a new pair. Should arrive tomorrow.
Got burnt in some areas during my 4 hours at the pool. One being the lovely red stripe going from my forehead to my nose where I obviously missed my sunscreen. Random other red spots also exist, including my hands, which one has a white spot where I got some sunscreen, part of my back, some leg areas, etc. :) Nice.
Walked to TJ Maxx.
Made dinner for my rents. Went to Publix for the third time since arriving here. LOVE PUBLIX!
Made crepes for rents.

At dinner my mom says, "Your wrists look smaller than ever." Um, okay, what is that supposed to mean. On our walk to TJ Maxx I mentioned how my inner thighs were sore. I looked at them and they were bright red. I said, "I wonder if this is sunburn or from them rubbing together?" She said, "If they rub together that means your legs are chunky." Thanks mom. I forgot her exact words but those were pretty much them. Turns out that it's sunburn.

Now...BED TIME!